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Dissociated

I don't even feel as if I’m sitting here
Zoned out in a dissociative state
Feeling so unwanted by the world
Stuck inside, no, I don’t feel okay

One singular human, that’s all I get
To wait all day, just one to wait on
Waiting for you all day, I just can’t take…
I can’t take this anymore, all this going on

I feel like a phony, stealing away time
Time that belongs to others who live
Who actually can provide, others...
Who may even have something to give

So i sit here silently, breathing silently
Whispers in my head, needing silence
But I can’t release it, going to need it
To keep me company, keep my sense

“You have too much going on”
Says another someone, who has it all
They have the outside, they have each other…
I just have these four walls...
Written by LivDiane
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Being homebound by disability, and only knowing the one human you live with.
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