I sometimes see us as a sad and ugly species so stuck in our systems, causing and experiencing so much suffering.
But I try to remember that mostly we are beautiful beings and our uniqueness is indisputable..
I think we just forget that we are members of nature so divine, so magnificent so mysterious and mischievous, we are everything "multidimensional" deities we possess and create all the wonder love and hate, we've done it all it seems still to this day and despite the...
Waiting for the words to walk through, to emerge from a mind so blurred..
I need to purge on these pages more often to release any fears or rage that lingers..
Can't stay gone too long I've realized. I'm always lured back in again and again, the urge to pick up thy pen.. I must Maybe I lust after that next line too much, the next word the next rhyme but nothing worse than wanting to say something anything without knowing how to with a mind so blank.
My head is swimming.. the light and darkness both dimming. I'm still seeing forward and back into eternity..
Each century one evolving moment we roam and grow with..
Exploring and expanding no longer ignoring or misunderstanding.
The soul demanding you remain standing through whatever situation or sensation surges through and commences to drain you cause your essence remains true even when the mind misconstrues the multitudes of mysteries and miseries mystifying thee.. ...
In my mind I roam sometimes aimlessly sometimes shamelessly, I watch the thoughts and feelings form and fade like the breeze and summer shade or I get caught in the rain, my monsoon of miseries..
However drear the atmosphere appears to be, below the billowing fear and endless emotions flowing there lies that "calm dimension" a place so empty of commotion, there is stillness the eternal essence is very real and near so clear to me I see..
In this moment I morph and the next one and the one before.. depressing less trying to love a little more and more with no resorting to ignoring the intensity of simply existing in this essence..
The visions persist the truth.. in them you mustn't dismiss it's for you, this individual testament so eternally relevant no matter the circumstance, they guide you to advance and groove on in this divine dance.. the ultimate chance no matter how massive the mess or disastrous the stress your...
God of stars towering over, in the misty morning this mystery hovers above..
Another day another breath to take more mistakes to learn from more wisdom you may earn some during this transitional moment in time and space and mind.. in spirit I yearn to embrace this change.. change of pace and level of living more energy and effort I know I must be giving.. even when my patience and passions are dwindling and on the decline I take it as a sign to take a look within thyself to see ...
I still linger in limbo most of the time. Stuck in uncertainty perpetually unsound.. but the beauty of being always brings me back around to see that though it all seems chaotic and cruelly catastrophic it's just part of a process..
The rage rises and subsides just like that comes and goes, these emotions flow or build up so quick with no place to go so bound to explode.. but before I blow I begin to slow myself, before the frustration fills to leave me ill.. I still my mind and soul ...
Desperate to Escape Memory Eliminated Never stable Time blurs Increasingly irrelevant Ability to know vanquished
Dementia, does nothing but dement ya.. how easy it is to lose control of everything you once knew.. but your essence still remains true even after the mind is through and can't keep up no more, even when the thoughts loop round and round and the questions stay the same with no permanent answer to be found you see nothing's to blame.. I bet she never could've saw this...
Still breathing and still grieving, still seething to break free from all that I let deceive me. I've been given another day though, to grow and live and give however I can however bland and harrowed I feel, to learn to stand still when situations which seem so unreal begin to take their toll on an already unstable saddened soul.. only I can release control to save myself and escape from this hole I've been held up in so long again..
His mind was lost in his last days, his death was swift but not unseen as his spirit was adrift with a conscience not so clean..
With a head full of lies it's no surprise he was past the point of no return, no time left to change no time to learn.. he burned in hell whilst trudging through this realm which he left overwhelmed and defeated by these repeated delusions and deceptions leading to his disconnection..
Sadly his downfall and degradation was his own doing.. destruction is what he was...
In this droning state I dwell and can't vacate, I stay enraged and empty.. emotions inflamed and a plenty, can't see straight through this turmoil with my blood boiling and my moods merging, I'm indulging in my misery and the mystery..
My mind is the sky on a long summer night, occasionally clear and still with no motions to make or thoughts to think.. other times it's tense and the air is thick with storms swarming and chaos abounding.. I don't wish to be sounding as if I dismiss these...
Too late to know now what anything's worth as everything's been unearthed entirely and takes its course chaotically.. despite any remorse on our part.. this space is still here for anyone left with a spirit to see and a heart to hear we know it's always near even whilst wandering tearfully.. this void now contains all and all that remains shall fall back to the supreme source from which all has spawned..