Today I'm Clean

 
it's the end of a year
a hard one
I won some battles and lost some
but tonight sees me clean
 
I won't use today
 
it's hard to say that
it may seem like a small thing
but for me, it's not
I've celebrated every new year high or drunk
 
today I'm clean
 
means I have a chance at happiness
a future not dependent on a drug
worried because I know tomorrow is coming
and thinking about my next fix
 
today I know I will be alright because I didn't use today
 
using is scary
you never know when it might be your last
even dying isn't easy when you use
knowing your family will find out  
the last thing you did was get high
 
today I'm clean
 
if died tonight  
my family would know I went down a warrior
battling my disease and winning
 
today I'm clean
 
with that said
I say a prayer for all those suffering
the guilt, shame and pain
 
know this you're not alone
I've been homeless and hopeless
this is a disease you battle
brother and sister warrior
 
may we meet in sobriety...
 
Today I'm Clean