Danger Will Robinson

 
early morning finds me hurting
bipolar depression hurts
my body aches and I'm lethargic
it can last for days on end
it's days like these I want to die
I get so tired of feeling so empty
 
then like a flip of a switch
all the lights come on in the house
and I'm rolling with mania
I love my manic days
they make me feel high
invincible, like a God
sadly they don't last
and I come crashing down
 
I am depressed today
can you feel me?
I hate being so vulnerable to temptation
a wounded animal
with nowhere to shelter
 
this is when I give in to my vices
because it's survival of the fittest
and I must survive
I can't just lay down and die
even though I've tried
the grim reaper doesn't want me that way
he wants me to give up and take my own life
 
I will never be normal
no matter how hard I try
I'm on the max dose of psych drugs
still, I skate the line between sane and insane
 
I hurt and I'm afraid all I love will be taken from me
to try so hard and still come up short
there are no easy answers for one such as I
 
so I ride the roller coaster  
hanging on for dear life