Cruelty

-Why am I so Cruel and so Vicious
-I hate with a passion its ridiculous
-I'm so chill, the nicest guy you'll ever meet
-But I'm like a champ who can't admit defeat
-So full of resentment and anger
-I'm not safe, more like a danger
-To those I love and care about
-But I can't let it out
-You all see it when you look me in the face
-You can't tell because it doesn't show not one trace
-Behind this nice exterior is nicer one or
-Should I say you have to look at the core
-Because you should be able to see it in my eyes
-Nothing but anger, hatred, bad history & past lies
-It makes The heart grow cold, the emotions numb
-Not able to feel everything but only some
-Certain emotions bullied and pushed out
-Allowing the bad ones to get stronger
-Getting stronger as I write this,when I speak
-Pushing out the good emotions, making me not me
-Once the buttons are pushed, the nice guy goes to lunch
-And the monster comes .. to throw a punch
-Say what you want to make him feel guilty or cry
-But when it gets down to it, nothing flies
-Rage and anger fuels the savage beast, making it worst
-No one else matters when this happens, its all about me first
-Hatreds driving it wild-It doesn't quit until its tired
-Then the damage is done, leaving emotions scarred
-Feelings about me start turning cold and hard
-Once I'm no longer blinded by the fuel of that demon
-I'm back to me, my good emotions are free men
-But what happens the next time when its worst
-My past is the reason my future's stuck with this curse........