Emotions of death

 I am rusty lol not written in a bit :) forgive any probs with flow etc lol
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I might as well fucking die
My life is over , it is a lie

Spun for a child out of a fate full loom
predestined by genetics, stamped with a rune

Autism will soon be my doom
Stamped at birth, now ready for the tomb

Emotions will kill me soon and at last
Struggled with them since years past

So tired of these emotions, i hurt, i hurt!
What u do kills me so i kill u and then kurt/curt

So succinct, no lengthy adieu
Emotions i cant bear, every tear like a tear
My soul is en feux

I run out of stamina against myself
I beg for a reprive but another welt

Against my heart, so i grow cold
When god made me he dropped the mould/mold

Why else am i so putrid, so filled with rot
What happened to innocence, left in the cot?

I hurt, i dont know how much longer i will last
I cant bear my life, the present or the past

Where is my saviour, where is my lord?
nothing found , yet forever sought

Pain at so many junctions in my life
Failure and hurt abundant and rife.

So i bear all for you strangers to see
So you know me and now know you are free