~My Own Hell~

I feel like I'm drowning
In the seas of despair
Laughing at blood on my wrists
Mentally unable to care

I can't seem to find
My way through the dark
As hard as I try
I can't hit the mark

How many people
Must I lose?
As much as I hope
They never see the clues

I wish I could show you
The hell I live
I have no happiness
Left to give

I know this is my fault
I dug my own grave
This lonely sidewalk
Was my own to pave