Beautiful and brown

Meggy have you thought of doing a detox program.. idk maybe it would help sorry to hear you're going through this.. wishing you some peace Brenda

I live way out in the middle of the country. 40 miles from the nearest town that could aide me in something like this. Not only that but the clinic that would take me, I have to attend EVERY morning. The dr's office that I go to (the only one around here) doesn't have a liscense to care for drug addicts. I'm at a rock in a hard place. :( Thanks for your advice though. And NO these aren't excuses.

You should think about a detox program.  I know you have a daughter, but if they know you're trying and do what you can to get over this, there won't be an issue with her.

Hope it gets better for you.

Your hustlin' honesty is refreshing...& brutal. Acknowledge & recognize....takes courage & inner strength to do these things...the start of a long & difficult quest. I think you can do it, but it can be like baby steps into a dark & confusing tunnel filled with horror & pain co-mingling with the joys of being high. A one-step-forward & a-dozen-steps-back kind a thing. Sending you some telepathic mojos. Hope you can find that chem-free peace you seek, which is, of course, much easier said than done. Thanks for the honest sharing.

So sad. You can do it though. Probably one of the hardest things in your life but if you truly want it, you'll make it. Keep your head up.

No user wants to quit for real.....sometimes in life, the best motivation originates from the people who THINK you can't do it.....all the while smiling in your face with their "support".  That just make a person want to get high alone..............and the conversations about "quitting".. Um, I used to want to quit until we had to talk about the many reasons not to.  

I think that therapists and suggested treatments for abuse and dependency should be left to the individual.  Rehab rarely works.....??? Each human is addicted to something or more.  Even if your addiction is of another genre than recreational drugs, you are no less absorbed within obsession.  Money, eating, exercise, shopping, entertainment, perfection just to name a few.....I know so many addicts that bring limitless personal qualities into play.... If a person requests help, give it....If they just want to voice their feelings into a poem, at least let them without becoming an intervention specialist in your criticism......People who are obsessed with romance and love.......they are the ones who need treatment.  As a publisher of numerous drug poems, I allow my experience to generate my views....I am currently an occasional user with many poisons, however, my span of addiction of 18 years has proved only a single thing..........CONTROL THE ADDICTION.....if you can't overcome it eternally, at least apply standards, goals and rules that you can live with.....Just as fingers point to you; another's judgemental advice reflects the pointing back to them.....