I just don't care anymore...

I have become unstably numb
Every care has been exhausted
The color burned from every pigment
The anxiety dripped from every pore
The dilation in my eyes have shrunk
My high has become an all-time low
My depressant becomes a constant upper
Cut a little with the tip of my blade
I see the blood but I can’t feel the pain
The constant listlessness drives me insane
The fire of passion in my heart is extinguished
I have no reason to carry on any further
I have given so much to suffer so greatly
What is the point of working for something any more
I just don’t care anymore. I don’t give a shit
Fire me, Abuse me, Kill me, Arrest me. I. AM. DONE.
No more apologies for my actions, I DON’T CARE
Faith has left me blind, leaving me in a bind
I find spiritual release in all of the wrong places
Worship in the temple of Smirnoff and orange juice
Forever waiting to be out from under the burden
Of spending another day in this circle of hell