Talk to Me

Communicating
honestly
and holistically
is difficult
even for the best thinkers
and most understanding people
when it comes
to being able
to be forthright
and open
about how we think
and feel.

What do I want?
What do I think?
How do I feel?
What does this mean?
How did you hurt me?
I am sorry I said that.
That is not what I meant.
I was acting out of self-defensiveness.
This did not turn out as I planned it.
I can't remember but I really want to.
I need to listen better.
I want to be listened to.
I need you near me.
I want to be loved.
I need to be held.
I want you to love me.
I feel like nothing I do is right?
I am so off of my game.
I need to start over.
I want to do better.
What is the statute
of limitations
for being held accountable
for things I did
in the past
but which
I can no longer
do anything about?
I can't change what I did,
only what I do
in the future.
I want to start from scratch.
Can we meet all over again
and do it differently?
Is it too late for us?
Can you ever forgive me?

Tough.  
Sadly,
fucking difficult discussions
that kick our asses
and that are so hard
that we are more likely
to skip them
and pretend
until it is
too late.

runningturtle87