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A CONSCIOUS INTENTION
as i move out
into this new day
i set in my mind
a conscious intention
to strip off
and away
all walls
all shallow facades
all airs and fears
all false pretensions
all worries all needs
all futile concerns
all nervous tensions
all empty vain efforts
at trying to simply
fit in anymore
which i ve long
learned to wear
all around me
unconsciously as
a near impenetrable
invisible
armored skin
a self defensive
fear based shield
long dying
to be shed
which unfailingly
denies me
any chance at all
for more meaningful
deeper connection
that only confines me
yet further still
in the lonelier realms
of perpetual separation
where in my
fallow isolation
nothing comes to
lift and bloom me
to pry these
subconscious bars
of flesh and blood
of bone and doubt
far enough apart
to free me from
this self inflicted
jail of self
yet where i now
choose to transcend
to fully free
and release myself
from their
oppressive hold
to wash away
to consciously dissolve
the blinding illusion
of their fictitious
thieving power
its time for me
to equally deny
them now
to delete
and uninstall
them all
to let go
all judgment
all need to blame
everything under
the sun but me
to negate all
negative thoughts
release all
outer and inner
personal conflicts
of being
completely
to consciously
slip away
slough off
all that which
blocks my growth
restrains my soul
and inner spirits
open heart from
more freely sharing
all its light
previously
withheld
for so long
yet even now
still somewhat
confined
from both
restraint
and resistance
from creative
achievements
as well
as my
hard learned
abhorrent
refusal
to throw
any further
my hard earned
pearls
before or to
anymore still sleeping
conscious yet
unawakened beings
or otherwise
self serving swine
oh to be
so freed at last
from and to
the all enduring
yet weakened hope
from the long suffering
nearly forgotten
though surprisingly
resilient
innermost promise
once held before
the shattered
threadbare faith
and seemingly
abandoned fate
which came about
to be from
so many years
of desperate
still unanswered prayers
that fell through
the cracks in
the floor of my
needs and frustrated
burning human desires
beyond the persistent
far reaching rays
of some distant
faint twinkling stars
imagination triggering
lingering possibility
of new opportunities
to open to touch
to benevolently
reseed me
with its silent
inspirations
to quicken
and renew my
innermost strengths
deepest beliefs
experiential faith
dreams and hopes
in some perfect
newly found
better solutions
higher universal
global transformations
shining salvation
to soon
enough now
come for me
for all of us
for everything
for all
someday
before
too long
i sense
i feel
i know
i trust
i freely sow
these silent
conscious
seeds of
my awakened
heart and souls
highest
oneness
awareness s
inner visions
intentions
to do my
subtle part
towards
bringing them
into being
into co created
manifested form
for this
struggling
long suffering
imbalanced
dying
though still
oh so
wondrous
sacred
conscious
living world
which i ll
soon
enough now
leave behind
for all other
eternal
living souls
and still
awakening
human beings
to further nurture
and heal
to transformationally
recreate
and further
newly
re spawn
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