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      A CONSCIOUS INTENTION      

     
as i move out    
       into this new day    
i set in my mind    
       a conscious intention    
to strip off    
       and away all walls    
all shallow facades    
       all airs and fears    
all false pretensions    
       all worries  all needs    
all futile concerns    
       all nervous tensions    
all empty  vain efforts    
       at trying to fit in    
that i usually wear    
       all around me    
unconsciously as    
       a near impenetrable      
armored skin    
       a defensive  fear based    
shield  long dying    
       to be shed    
which unfailingly    
       denies me    
any chance at    
       more meaningful    
connection  that    
       only confines me    
in the lonelier      
       realms of perpetual    
separation      
       where in my    
fallow isolation    
       nothing comes to    
lift and bloom me    
       to pry these    
subconscious bars    
       of flesh and blood    
of bone and doubt    
       far enough apart    
to free me from    
       this self inflicted    
jail of self    
       yet where i now  
choose to transcend  
       to free    
and release myself    
      from their  
oppressive hold    
       to wash away    
to consciously dissolve    
       the blinding illusion    
of their fictitious    
       thieving power    
its time for me    
       to equally deny    
them now    
       to delete    
and uninstall    
       them all    
to let go all judgment    
       all need to blame    
everything under      
       the sun  but me    
to negate all    
       negative thoughts    
release all    
       outer and inner    
personal conflicts    
       of being    
completely    
       to consciously      
slip away    
       slough off    
all that which    
       blocks my growth    
restrains my soul    
       and inner spirits    
open heart  from    
       more freely sharing    
all its light    
       previously    
withheld    
       for so long    
yet even now    
       still somewhat    
confined  
       from both  
restraint    
       and resistance    
from creative  
       achievements  
as well    
       as my    
hard learned  
       abhorrent    
refusal    
      to throw  
any further  
     my hard earned
pearls  
     before or to
anymore still sleeping
     self serving swine    
oh to be    
       so freed at last    
from and to    
       the all enduring    
yet weakened hope    
       from the long suffering    
nearly forgotten    
       though surprisingly    
resilient    
       innermost promise    
once held before    
       the shattered      
threadbare faith    
       and seemingly    
abandoned fate    
       which came about      
to be  from    
       so many years    
of desperate  still      
       unanswered prayers    
that fell through    
       the cracks in    
the floor of my    
       needs and frustrated    
burning  human desires  
      beyond the persistent    
far reaching rays    
      of some distant    
faint  twinkling stars
      imagination triggering    
lingering possibility    
       of new opportunities    
to open  to touch    
       and benevolently    
reseed me    
       with its silent    
inspirations    
       to renew my    
inner strengths    
       hopes  faith    
and belief    
       in some perfect    
new  better solutions    
       shining salvation    
soon enough now    
       i hope    
will come    
       for me            
again
       before  
too long   
       someday     
 
 
 
           
     
     
     
 
OyateInyanNajin
Written by OyateInyanNajin
Published | Edited 21st Sep 2019
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