Submissions by OyateInyanNajin
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
12th Sep 2024 3:37am
12th Sep 2024 3:37am
SUBCONSCIOUS INNER SKETCHINGS BEYOND THE VEILS OF MASKLESS TIME (4:00am, 8-17-2001; Galveston Island, Texas)
stirred up from out of
stone deep sleep
i suddenly find myself
somewhere between
still half asleep
and half awake
stumbling through
three rooms of darkness
to quench my body s
inner call of thirst
which lured me up
from out of my now already
unremembered dreams
into this present limbo
of silent blankness
everywhere all around me
with my eyes still lightly closed
my bare feet carefully feel
each softly carpeted step
as i make my braille like way
through this nocturnal darkness
externally...
stone deep sleep
i suddenly find myself
somewhere between
still half asleep
and half awake
stumbling through
three rooms of darkness
to quench my body s
inner call of thirst
which lured me up
from out of my now already
unremembered dreams
into this present limbo
of silent blankness
everywhere all around me
with my eyes still lightly closed
my bare feet carefully feel
each softly carpeted step
as i make my braille like way
through this nocturnal darkness
externally...
#identity
#insomnia
#LifeAsAWriter
#SelfReflection
#WritingPoetry
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Sep 2024 4:17am
7th Sep 2024 4:17am
LIKE LACTOSE LAVA FLOW (11-9-1995; Galveston Island, Texas)
words
wordz circle in thermal helixes
like spiraling d n a
they drift and fall out of mind s sky
like spontaneous
subliminal sudden incontinance
like lactose lava flow
like the black ink buzzards they are
opportunistically scavenging themselves
and anything else
they can sink their insatiable
lettered teeth into
as an effectively therapeutic
survival strategy device
to pick my life journey s
dark roads of so many dashed fallen hopes
withered dreams and injured feelings
all these countless roads...
wordz circle in thermal helixes
like spiraling d n a
they drift and fall out of mind s sky
like spontaneous
subliminal sudden incontinance
like lactose lava flow
like the black ink buzzards they are
opportunistically scavenging themselves
and anything else
they can sink their insatiable
lettered teeth into
as an effectively therapeutic
survival strategy device
to pick my life journey s
dark roads of so many dashed fallen hopes
withered dreams and injured feelings
all these countless roads...
#cancer
#fate
#PTSD
#rebirth
#spiritual
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Sep 2024 5:14am
5th Sep 2024 5:14am
PRE MORTEM PILLOW THOUGHTS ON LOSS (10-19-1995, Galveston Island, Texas)
i lay my head down
upon your cold pillow
but at the moment
you are no longer here
i can t help but wonder
if this is what my shroud
might feel like
after i m gone and no longer here too
that is
if
the so called dead
can even still feel at all
i wonder if my own great beyond
might feel and seem as calm
as empty and peaceful as this
such a rare place
of no more mental thinking
sounds so relatively good
almost too good to possibly be true at all
where there will be nothing there
to remind me ...
upon your cold pillow
but at the moment
you are no longer here
i can t help but wonder
if this is what my shroud
might feel like
after i m gone and no longer here too
that is
if
the so called dead
can even still feel at all
i wonder if my own great beyond
might feel and seem as calm
as empty and peaceful as this
such a rare place
of no more mental thinking
sounds so relatively good
almost too good to possibly be true at all
where there will be nothing there
to remind me ...
#acceptance
#breakup
#heartbroken
#sadness
#separation
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SELF POEM
Published
3rd Sep 2024 2:50am
3rd Sep 2024 2:50am
QUESTIONS ? (8-9-1996; Galveston Island Texas)
questions
it s time for action
last chance
for my strength and hope
have already flown
where is the energy
to move my good
out into this much greater
larger world around
and beyond me here
where i am presently
puzzling over vehicles
in which i can either choose
or not
to continue using
my same old shame and fear based
dysfunctional discretion
or maybe now at much too long last
try something else
all together
completely different
something much more spirit driven ...
it s time for action
last chance
for my strength and hope
have already flown
where is the energy
to move my good
out into this much greater
larger world around
and beyond me here
where i am presently
puzzling over vehicles
in which i can either choose
or not
to continue using
my same old shame and fear based
dysfunctional discretion
or maybe now at much too long last
try something else
all together
completely different
something much more spirit driven ...
#choices
#death
#identity
#SelfReflection
#spiritual
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Aug 2024 5:14am
27th Aug 2024 5:14am
DARK DESERT HIGH NOON (around 1988-(?); in my tiny garage apartment; Leucadia, California)
how many more tiny rooms
must i move to and live in
before i can move and live no more
how many more small rooms
boxes
and cramped dusty spaces
await to further contain me ahead
like these bits of residual dust from my past
still trapped inside all these cardboard moving boxes stacked up unopened in a tight corner behind me which hold so many scattered good memories artifacts broken kept pieces ...
must i move to and live in
before i can move and live no more
how many more small rooms
boxes
and cramped dusty spaces
await to further contain me ahead
like these bits of residual dust from my past
still trapped inside all these cardboard moving boxes stacked up unopened in a tight corner behind me which hold so many scattered good memories artifacts broken kept pieces ...
#anxiety
#disability
#illness
#insomnia
#PTSD
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Aug 2024 3:24am
19th Aug 2024 3:24am
LOVE IN MY ARMS (I)(original 1st draft;1976; Poretto Jetty, Galveston, Texas; struggling with being Gay at 22 yr.s old)
love in my arms
here then gone
comes and goes
like some rare moon tide
so infrequently in my life
sunrise soon brightened
into new day
but it s clarity only added to
my ever deepening
self loathing s confusions
so i chose to stay home
until the sun had gone down
as evening eventually arrived
only a comfortable disguise
then down to the beach i walked
as night s darkness soon fell upon me
out at the end of a jetty
where upon looking back towards shore
i stared up at the seawall s...
here then gone
comes and goes
like some rare moon tide
so infrequently in my life
sunrise soon brightened
into new day
but it s clarity only added to
my ever deepening
self loathing s confusions
so i chose to stay home
until the sun had gone down
as evening eventually arrived
only a comfortable disguise
then down to the beach i walked
as night s darkness soon fell upon me
out at the end of a jetty
where upon looking back towards shore
i stared up at the seawall s...
#ForbiddenLove
#gay
#misunderstood
#sea
#UnrequitedLove
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
17th Aug 2024 3:50am
17th Aug 2024 3:50am
TRAVEL BORN INSIGHTS AND PERCEPTIONS (4-28-1989; San Blas, Nayarit, Mexico.)
through migrained aura lines
some ancient huichol spirit dream
dances for me
throughout this foreign
yet still somehow
familiar land
throughout this vast
pacific s sparkling sea
spread out far and wide
before me here
as far as my eyes can see
across these ever changing
tropic skies above
fluidly unfolding everywhere
both above and beyond me
overlapping this beautiful
coastal jungle garden path
which leads and winds it s way
down to the nearest beach below
where i now stand gazing out
in...
some ancient huichol spirit dream
dances for me
throughout this foreign
yet still somehow
familiar land
throughout this vast
pacific s sparkling sea
spread out far and wide
before me here
as far as my eyes can see
across these ever changing
tropic skies above
fluidly unfolding everywhere
both above and beyond me
overlapping this beautiful
coastal jungle garden path
which leads and winds it s way
down to the nearest beach below
where i now stand gazing out
in...
#apathy
#evolution
#healing
#memories
#SelfReflection
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
16th Aug 2024 1:06am
16th Aug 2024 1:06am
SEPARATION (1990's; Galveston Island, Texas)
ill health
has kept me stuck
indoors too long again
where the only thing
that s grown
at all in me
for months on end
here lately
is this increasingly growing
swollen sense
of ever deepening
separation
for here i am
again today
stuck inside once more again
with not much
i can do at all
beyond
and aside from
my usual
daydream
window longing
moist soft clouds
fine mists falling
accumulates
into drops on leaves
to my skin calling
yet...
has kept me stuck
indoors too long again
where the only thing
that s grown
at all in me
for months on end
here lately
is this increasingly growing
swollen sense
of ever deepening
separation
for here i am
again today
stuck inside once more again
with not much
i can do at all
beyond
and aside from
my usual
daydream
window longing
moist soft clouds
fine mists falling
accumulates
into drops on leaves
to my skin calling
yet...
#despair
#earth
#FeelingLost
#humankind
#LifeStruggles
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Aug 2024 2:17am
14th Aug 2024 2:17am
LOVE IN MY ARMS (IV)-(4th revision; 1976; Galveston, Texas; out at the end of Poretto Jetty, contemplating suicide.)
love in my arms
here then gone
comes and goes
like a rare moon tide
sunrise soon brightened
into new day
but it s clearness
only added
to my ever deepening
self loathing s confusions
evening eventually arrived
only a comfortable disguise
down to the beach
i slowly walked
as night s darkness
soon fell upon me
out at the end of a jetty
where i stared up at ...
here then gone
comes and goes
like a rare moon tide
sunrise soon brightened
into new day
but it s clearness
only added
to my ever deepening
self loathing s confusions
evening eventually arrived
only a comfortable disguise
down to the beach
i slowly walked
as night s darkness
soon fell upon me
out at the end of a jetty
where i stared up at ...
#beach
#conflict
#ForbiddenLove
#sea
#UnrequitedLove
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
14th Aug 2024 00:36am
14th Aug 2024 00:36am
HIDDEN PARADISE BEACH ('X' Marks the Spot') (original 1st draft) (Hidden Paradise Beach, near Puerto Vallarta, Mexico)
hi sea
water love
comes right up
greeting me
wave face
rises bends and breaks
in all it s blue green purity
as it curves and pitches
like a thick wet whale tongue s
fluid glass song s
sudden powerful
whumppphhhh
as it rushes up
onto shallow sloped shoreline s
receptive sandy beach s
tranquil tropic heart beat s
transcendent tidal seam
soaking sand fizzingly
all around my legs
and open spirit s being
in it s exhuberant friendly gesture
to greet embrace and kiss
my earthbound...
water love
comes right up
greeting me
wave face
rises bends and breaks
in all it s blue green purity
as it curves and pitches
like a thick wet whale tongue s
fluid glass song s
sudden powerful
whumppphhhh
as it rushes up
onto shallow sloped shoreline s
receptive sandy beach s
tranquil tropic heart beat s
transcendent tidal seam
soaking sand fizzingly
all around my legs
and open spirit s being
in it s exhuberant friendly gesture
to greet embrace and kiss
my earthbound...
#beach
#earth
#memories
#sea
#sun
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
13th Aug 2024 5:00am
13th Aug 2024 5:00am
HIDDEN PARADISE BEACH (4th draft) (5-1-1989; remote beach, just North of Puerto Vallarta, Mexico)
hi sea
water love
comes right up greeting me
wave face
in all it s sparkling
blue green purity
curves and pitches
like a thick wet whale tongue s
liquid glass song s
subtle fluid inner whispering s
tingling effervescent
glistening bursting bubble s
healing pranic touch
as it with each sudden
shoreline racing
shallow water sweeping
rhythmically recurrent surge
comes right up
to x citedly greet me
with it s powerful friendly
whumph
as it rushes up around me
soaking sand fizzingly...
water love
comes right up greeting me
wave face
in all it s sparkling
blue green purity
curves and pitches
like a thick wet whale tongue s
liquid glass song s
subtle fluid inner whispering s
tingling effervescent
glistening bursting bubble s
healing pranic touch
as it with each sudden
shoreline racing
shallow water sweeping
rhythmically recurrent surge
comes right up
to x citedly greet me
with it s powerful friendly
whumph
as it rushes up around me
soaking sand fizzingly...
#beach
#nature
#pagan
#sea
#spiritual
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Aug 2024 6:11am
10th Aug 2024 6:11am
LOVE IN MY ARMS (III)-(my 3rd revised version)-(1976; Poretto Jetty, Galveston, Texas, struggling with being GAY)
love in my arms
here then gone
comes and goes
like some rare moon tide
sunrise soon brightened
into new day
but it s clearness
only added to my
ever deepening confusions
evening arrived
only a comfortable disguise
down to the beach i walked
as night s darkness
soon fell upon me
out at the end of a jetty
from which i stared up and out
at the seawall s street lights
shining down from high above me here
reflecting mercurially out into night s ...
here then gone
comes and goes
like some rare moon tide
sunrise soon brightened
into new day
but it s clearness
only added to my
ever deepening confusions
evening arrived
only a comfortable disguise
down to the beach i walked
as night s darkness
soon fell upon me
out at the end of a jetty
from which i stared up and out
at the seawall s street lights
shining down from high above me here
reflecting mercurially out into night s ...
#despair
#emotional
#emptiness
#FeelingLost
#suicide
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