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where is that one kindred man  
     in this world
whose souls true destiny
     is to find my own
oh let him find me
     now dear god
to dive his seeking tongue
     like a hot  wet lemongrass sword
deep down into my vacant heart
     to fill it up again with more
to mix his soul with mine
     to torque my yearning mind
into surrendering my wholeness
     where is that rare  
perfect  exotic love
     that i have always longed for
that i have always known
     someday would come
to transcend everything i know
     to lift me up beyond all need
yet that day to come
     has never fully come  so far
so far  so far ive gone
     to seek and find that special one
that rare  perfect  exotic love
     to dive headlong into my own
with his sacred everything
     to fill me up  once more
to fill this empty vacancy
     to torque my sense of reality
into surrendering my all
     my all  my need
to be swept away by such
     to be lifted up beyond
everything i know  
     beyond everything that was
transcended by that one
     rare  perfect  exotic love
to come and take me
     then cum and make me
cum myself  come all undone
     to take this too long exile
of empty loneliness
     away from me at last
to liberate me finally
     from my seemingly
endless  solo path
     of so many little
inner sufferings
     created by myself
that one kindred man
     to dive full force into me
his healing tongue and more
     to torque ecstatically
all his love and warmth
     inside  out  around my own
to pull my refilled heart
     up from its aching roots
to free my very being
     in surrendering to my soul
as i yieldingly succumb to his
     transcending all we know
all past longing from lack
     with no more looking back
here at last
     to be no more