Submissions by Vampyre497
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Liminal Lucid Life
Am I actually alone
Should I still check behind me
Am I feeling okay
Should I adventure to see
Am I getting lost
Is this where I’m meant to be
Am I learning myself
Am I chopping trees to save the leaves
I think I’m falling deeper (alive)
Boiled like a heater (survive)
Kill me in a two-seater (die)
Judgement of a beater (lie)
Am I sick inside
Is my paranoia justified
Am I buried alive
Is my throat still umbilically tied
Am I falling apart
Are mental faculties fried
Am I dead at heart
Is...
Should I still check behind me
Am I feeling okay
Should I adventure to see
Am I getting lost
Is this where I’m meant to be
Am I learning myself
Am I chopping trees to save the leaves
I think I’m falling deeper (alive)
Boiled like a heater (survive)
Kill me in a two-seater (die)
Judgement of a beater (lie)
Am I sick inside
Is my paranoia justified
Am I buried alive
Is my throat still umbilically tied
Am I falling apart
Are mental faculties fried
Am I dead at heart
Is...
#anxiety
#dark
#confusion #redemption
#confusion #redemption
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All I Never Wanted
Kaleidoscopic Asshole
Solipsistic synergy
You never loved what I could be
Fed me lies, stifled my cries
Ignored all that, that you did see
When I drove back home from yours
I feared what he had taken from those
Maybe you told me a fable
Or maybe it was him being unstable
My selfish brain lashes out
Why couldn’t I know, casting doubt
Were we ever really friends
Or was I a scapegoat for loose split-ends
How fucking selfish of me
To constantly presume myself to be
One you could trust so honestly
I know...
Solipsistic synergy
You never loved what I could be
Fed me lies, stifled my cries
Ignored all that, that you did see
When I drove back home from yours
I feared what he had taken from those
Maybe you told me a fable
Or maybe it was him being unstable
My selfish brain lashes out
Why couldn’t I know, casting doubt
Were we ever really friends
Or was I a scapegoat for loose split-ends
How fucking selfish of me
To constantly presume myself to be
One you could trust so honestly
I know...
#anger
#love
#regret
#heartbroken
#bittersweet
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Ashtray
My life is done by your decisions, while I choose what to tell and say
It all comes to me through all of your visions, I'm an ashtray of yesterday
I say what comes to my mind; only when you show your face
On this road I simply cannot find; anywhere you have no trace
I hear about all of your pain, and maybe you can't listen
But while you suck up all the fame that you're given from your heaven
In this old refrain of mine; I must find your state of mind
You speak to me constantly; As I just try, Just try to break free
In this old refrain of...
It all comes to me through all of your visions, I'm an ashtray of yesterday
I say what comes to my mind; only when you show your face
On this road I simply cannot find; anywhere you have no trace
I hear about all of your pain, and maybe you can't listen
But while you suck up all the fame that you're given from your heaven
In this old refrain of mine; I must find your state of mind
You speak to me constantly; As I just try, Just try to break free
In this old refrain of...
#anger
#love
#hate
#rejection
#heartbroken
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Vertical For Effectiveness
I'm going insane; I can't see straight anymore
I'm going insane; I feel my mind walk out the door
I'm going insane; There's others than me
I'm going insane; But you're too inane to see
Don’t lie to yourself
You know we're here to help, pathetic excuse for self-help
We mean you no harm, you're too weak to own a firearm
Don’t lie to yourself
I'll let the red rain fall, as the clouds roll in
I let my organs cry as I hear the screams of sin
I'll wash it all away with the sanity of my brain
Don’t wait for me, don’t wait for me ...
I'm going insane; I feel my mind walk out the door
I'm going insane; There's others than me
I'm going insane; But you're too inane to see
Don’t lie to yourself
You know we're here to help, pathetic excuse for self-help
We mean you no harm, you're too weak to own a firearm
Don’t lie to yourself
I'll let the red rain fall, as the clouds roll in
I let my organs cry as I hear the screams of sin
I'll wash it all away with the sanity of my brain
Don’t wait for me, don’t wait for me ...
#anxiety
#loneliness
#frustration
#despair
#emptiness
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To The Beat
Sit on down, like a savior of reign
Let you feast as we begin to train
Listen up, we are the gods of pain
Come back tomorrow we will do the same
Begin to see what we truly believe
You're indoctrination proves you are naive
Now go forth, but never leave
Commit these crimes for the god you conceive
Escape into a world of sex
You're so young, yet so complex
Swim into the Web vortex
But don't forget to use Kleenex
Beat the meat - Meet the beat
Young child, don't you see
All that you can do for me
Though...
Let you feast as we begin to train
Listen up, we are the gods of pain
Come back tomorrow we will do the same
Begin to see what we truly believe
You're indoctrination proves you are naive
Now go forth, but never leave
Commit these crimes for the god you conceive
Escape into a world of sex
You're so young, yet so complex
Swim into the Web vortex
But don't forget to use Kleenex
Beat the meat - Meet the beat
Young child, don't you see
All that you can do for me
Though...
#porn
#music
#addiction #temptation
#addiction #temptation
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Wrong
I feel so alone, I feel so bored
My brain won’t relax, my heart acts like a fort
I don’t want to disappoint, I expect nothing less
I want to live more, but I couldn’t care less
Are you sure, Are you sure; Nothing feels right but nothing is wrong
All feels like art with contrived along
Everything is wrong and nothing is clean
My life is a pit and to hiss is a dream
Floating along with my hateful self
Eating away with my internal bells
Intestines growl with malice amid
My brain continues to raise the bid
Wait, I’m...
My brain won’t relax, my heart acts like a fort
I don’t want to disappoint, I expect nothing less
I want to live more, but I couldn’t care less
Are you sure, Are you sure; Nothing feels right but nothing is wrong
All feels like art with contrived along
Everything is wrong and nothing is clean
My life is a pit and to hiss is a dream
Floating along with my hateful self
Eating away with my internal bells
Intestines growl with malice amid
My brain continues to raise the bid
Wait, I’m...
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness
#shame
#emptiness
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Servitutem Honestatis
Jospeh hangs himself in glory
God is the writer
Jesus lied to Mary
But christ is all you need
Carpenter of light
Given forty years of hate
Create and seed in secret
Those love beseech
Steal your account
Unholy of the gods
Kill those non-believers
A lie for personal questions
Defense of the gospel
For familial truth
Protect your story
From honest lesions
God is the writer
Jesus lied to Mary
But christ is all you need
Carpenter of light
Given forty years of hate
Create and seed in secret
Those love beseech
Steal your account
Unholy of the gods
Kill those non-believers
A lie for personal questions
Defense of the gospel
For familial truth
Protect your story
From honest lesions
#atheism
#religion
#faith
#mythology
#philosophical
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It's Just Not That Exciting
Listen to the silence, bask in your alliance
Stop changing subjects, you are the evil queen
You were never special, and this is all a ruse
Your non-existent clues, brain drowned benzene
Rape your friends for hatred sends
Kill the liars puts out fires
Suck the venom, scold the denim
Eat my heart, kill my part
Fuck fair, this world isn’t just
Don’t end his life, he’s on the cusp
It’s all inside, no emotional talk
Don’t worry the tide, the hate will walk
Stay up ‘til 2, no 3, no 4
Set off the bombs, just a few...
Stop changing subjects, you are the evil queen
You were never special, and this is all a ruse
Your non-existent clues, brain drowned benzene
Rape your friends for hatred sends
Kill the liars puts out fires
Suck the venom, scold the denim
Eat my heart, kill my part
Fuck fair, this world isn’t just
Don’t end his life, he’s on the cusp
It’s all inside, no emotional talk
Don’t worry the tide, the hate will walk
Stay up ‘til 2, no 3, no 4
Set off the bombs, just a few...
#anger
#hate
#frustration
#fear
#rhyming
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Not One f**king Answer
Your rum dreams and coke lies are spewing from both your eyes.
I see them every day, I hear them every night.
I feel your pain just out of spite.
I don't know if you'll be back tomorrow, wait and see.
You say that you give a fuck if I cut my life, but you don't seem to notice all my scars.
You never believe a single word I'd say. You creep and pry, and try to make me cry,
You just want one, one fucking answer,
But I have none, not one fucking answer,
You just want one, one fucking answer,
But I have none, not anyone, anymore, anywhere.
...
I see them every day, I hear them every night.
I feel your pain just out of spite.
I don't know if you'll be back tomorrow, wait and see.
You say that you give a fuck if I cut my life, but you don't seem to notice all my scars.
You never believe a single word I'd say. You creep and pry, and try to make me cry,
You just want one, one fucking answer,
But I have none, not one fucking answer,
You just want one, one fucking answer,
But I have none, not anyone, anymore, anywhere.
...
#anger
#heartbroken
#despair
#disappointment
#fear
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I'll Be Civil
I guess I’ll sit down
I guess I’ll stay around
Lies feel much better in the dark
My length’s immature
My head’s no future
Self-loathing seems to leave a mark
Diaphragm diazepam
Social existence scam
Never seeing humans in the sea
Fuck your easy living
Disturbance hive beginning
Listen for the thunder or the tree
My life can be meaningless
So, my mind can rest to please
Existing for just trying less
Your civility exists at ease
Don’t father me
I guess I’ll stay around
Lies feel much better in the dark
My length’s immature
My head’s no future
Self-loathing seems to leave a mark
Diaphragm diazepam
Social existence scam
Never seeing humans in the sea
Fuck your easy living
Disturbance hive beginning
Listen for the thunder or the tree
My life can be meaningless
So, my mind can rest to please
Existing for just trying less
Your civility exists at ease
Don’t father me
#sadness
#anger
#regret
#confusion
#disappointment
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Entrepreneurial Suffering
Can I close the door | Can I scream a little more
Can I make myself sore | Can I bleed onto the floor
Can I run away | Help me keep him at bay
Can you save me, I'm a stray | Can you see that I'm in pain
Leave it all alone | Can't I please go home
God-dammit pick up the phone | Just leave it all alone
The epitome of this week | Is a drowning anger physique
Burning in this heat | I will fake it 'til I'm beat
Fight me, tease me, fuck me, kill me
Fight me, tease me, fuck me, kill me
Fight me, tease me,...
Can I make myself sore | Can I bleed onto the floor
Can I run away | Help me keep him at bay
Can you save me, I'm a stray | Can you see that I'm in pain
Leave it all alone | Can't I please go home
God-dammit pick up the phone | Just leave it all alone
The epitome of this week | Is a drowning anger physique
Burning in this heat | I will fake it 'til I'm beat
Fight me, tease me, fuck me, kill me
Fight me, tease me, fuck me, kill me
Fight me, tease me,...
#anger
#anxiety
#regret
#hate
#disappointment
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Long Story Short
Long story short-
You give me butterflies,
When I see you my heart cries,
We both figure, probably not.
Long Story Short-
You avert your eyes,
That simple look implies,
We hate though never fought.
Long story short-
We simply nod while our thought dies,
Our thing is shit covered in flies,
Though neither of us was caught.
Long story short-
I don't know what to say,
I never see you anyway,
I really don't think it was all for naught.
Long story short-
I miss your...
You give me butterflies,
When I see you my heart cries,
We both figure, probably not.
Long Story Short-
You avert your eyes,
That simple look implies,
We hate though never fought.
Long story short-
We simply nod while our thought dies,
Our thing is shit covered in flies,
Though neither of us was caught.
Long story short-
I don't know what to say,
I never see you anyway,
I really don't think it was all for naught.
Long story short-
I miss your...
#love
#jealousy
#heartbroken #bittersweet
#heartbroken #bittersweet
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