Submissions by BlueBeastGirl (Beasty)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I just don't know.
sad exist
Someday I won't be sad.
Someday I won't exist.
Someday I won't exist.
#apathy
#MentalHealth
#weakness
167 reads
2 Comments
Kill the crush
Gotta get my emotions in check
Disengage and self reflect
It's always the same pattern
Too attached too quickly
Turned on by that sweet rejection
Fluttering emotions trapped in my skull
Truly stuck in the mantra of
"Get over it; he don't want you"
I'm trapped in this self harm loop
Listing all the reason I can't be loved
I'm addicted to that unrequited love
Crushing on people who can't return it
It's all the same... It's a safety thing
They can't hurt you if they've promised nothing
It's easier, it's easier to...
Disengage and self reflect
It's always the same pattern
Too attached too quickly
Turned on by that sweet rejection
Fluttering emotions trapped in my skull
Truly stuck in the mantra of
"Get over it; he don't want you"
I'm trapped in this self harm loop
Listing all the reason I can't be loved
I'm addicted to that unrequited love
Crushing on people who can't return it
It's all the same... It's a safety thing
They can't hurt you if they've promised nothing
It's easier, it's easier to...
#hate
#loneliness
#rejection
#FallingInLove
#UnrequitedLove
273 reads
3 Comments
Buried in Basalt
My hearts feels buried in basalt gravel
Delicate pressure points all surrounding
Each rocks presence is well known
A chorus of angular, uneven and jagged
Hearts can't help but beat as they are meant to
It's as the ocean beats against the sand
My blood doesn't soften the gravel as water does
Instead of crashing it pools through the gaps
Blood on basalt... It's quite the sight to behold
That thin fluid that turns rusty swirls to black
Each beat lifting and unsettling each stone
Each movement a new song thumps into existence
A song...
Delicate pressure points all surrounding
Each rocks presence is well known
A chorus of angular, uneven and jagged
Hearts can't help but beat as they are meant to
It's as the ocean beats against the sand
My blood doesn't soften the gravel as water does
Instead of crashing it pools through the gaps
Blood on basalt... It's quite the sight to behold
That thin fluid that turns rusty swirls to black
Each beat lifting and unsettling each stone
Each movement a new song thumps into existence
A song...
#sadness
#heartbroken
#UnrequitedLove
#disappointment
#FeelingTrapped
229 reads
2 Comments
church fire
I'd walk into a church fire
If it would burn away my sins
I'd let the flames dance on my skin
Until there wasn't any left
If it would burn away my sins
I'd let the flames dance on my skin
Until there wasn't any left
#sadness
#grief
#heartbroken
#shame
#PopCulture
225 reads
8 Comments
it won't let go of me
I cut the rope that bound us
Yet it still wraps around my throat
At night... even during the day
It's random and out of the blue
That thoughts of you choke me
I reach to pull them away from me
But it grows tighter as the memories fade
You were my compass now I've lost my way
I'm chosing to let go but the rope loops again
Intangible, untangable pain... it's just pain
I'm left with the noose of your loss
Strands of vibrant mourning I can't touch
I want to let go but it won't let go of me
Yet it still wraps around my throat
At night... even during the day
It's random and out of the blue
That thoughts of you choke me
I reach to pull them away from me
But it grows tighter as the memories fade
You were my compass now I've lost my way
I'm chosing to let go but the rope loops again
Intangible, untangable pain... it's just pain
I'm left with the noose of your loss
Strands of vibrant mourning I can't touch
I want to let go but it won't let go of me
#rejection
#heartbroken
#IMissYou #obsession
#IMissYou #obsession
333 reads
9 Comments
I'm broken and that's okay
I'm broken and that's okay
Not everyone needs to be whole
I don't need to spend my existence seeking to be fixed
I'd like to just exist right now... In this moment
I wish people would stop arguing with me
They don't like the word broken the way I use it
It's negative and they love me... They do
I'm special, unique and irreplaceable
They want to help me so much to get better
But I'm tired of being a project to myself... To everyone
Someone to pity and love in the way
That Pound dogs and Foster kids are loved
Love laced with with...
Not everyone needs to be whole
I don't need to spend my existence seeking to be fixed
I'd like to just exist right now... In this moment
I wish people would stop arguing with me
They don't like the word broken the way I use it
It's negative and they love me... They do
I'm special, unique and irreplaceable
They want to help me so much to get better
But I'm tired of being a project to myself... To everyone
Someone to pity and love in the way
That Pound dogs and Foster kids are loved
Love laced with with...
#strength
#MentalHealth
#TimeHeals
#aging
#PopCulture
289 reads
2 Comments
our perfect imbalance
I thought we changed enough
Where we wouldn't hurt anymore
Not each other...not ourselves
But now I think we're incapable of it
We'll never change enough for...
For the hurt to leave us alone
Even for a moment... Just a moment
I wish... I really do wish that I could've had
That moment where you said you loved me
Now it will never happen... Not for me
You'll love anyone but me... I am not owed your love
It isn't your fault that your love for me isn't enough
That it will never be the love I wish from you
We will always be the...
Where we wouldn't hurt anymore
Not each other...not ourselves
But now I think we're incapable of it
We'll never change enough for...
For the hurt to leave us alone
Even for a moment... Just a moment
I wish... I really do wish that I could've had
That moment where you said you loved me
Now it will never happen... Not for me
You'll love anyone but me... I am not owed your love
It isn't your fault that your love for me isn't enough
That it will never be the love I wish from you
We will always be the...
#grief
#ILoveYou
#UnrequitedLove
#hurt
#PopCulture
389 reads
3 Comments
Invisible Gypsy
Our silence is our safety
That's what my Dad would say
Don't tell them you're gypsy
That's how you end up dead
I'm Romani
I say it to an empty room
Swallowing my tears harshly
Old wounds reopened with precision
Invisible... That's all we are... Huh
That's what my Dad would say
Don't tell them you're gypsy
That's how you end up dead
I'm Romani
I say it to an empty room
Swallowing my tears harshly
Old wounds reopened with precision
Invisible... That's all we are... Huh
#heartbroken
#HumanRights
#despair
#inequality
#vulnerability
241 reads
6 Comments
Roma...not Gypsy
#silence
#HumanRights
#ignorance
#suffering
#culture
161 reads
Mosaic Love
I want to love you
Every piece of glass
Of that mosaic soul
I want to caress the sharp
And savor the pain,
Celebrate the scars left
Every piece of glass
Of that mosaic soul
I want to caress the sharp
And savor the pain,
Celebrate the scars left
#love
#identity
#honesty
#myself
#SelfWorth
358 reads
8 Comments
f**kable and Ugly
Sometimes I drown in the memory
Of how ugly you made me feel
When people would cut out their heart
Simply to have the chance to touch me
How could I ever truly feel ugly?
When someone will always be willing to fuck me
There will always be some greedy set of hands
That would take pleasure in the use of this body
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
And so many eyes take joy in looking at me
I do not understand or agree but still they do
It's not something I will ever understand
But loving me? Caring for me?...
Of how ugly you made me feel
When people would cut out their heart
Simply to have the chance to touch me
How could I ever truly feel ugly?
When someone will always be willing to fuck me
There will always be some greedy set of hands
That would take pleasure in the use of this body
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
And so many eyes take joy in looking at me
I do not understand or agree but still they do
It's not something I will ever understand
But loving me? Caring for me?...
#love
#lust
#sex
#temptation
#LookingForLove
463 reads
15 Comments
I wish you okay
I wish you days of it could have been better
I wish you food that never quite hits the right spot
I wish for slightly flat pop even though you just opened it
I wish that you have nothing but small car problems
I wish you slightly sticky and warm work out equipment
I wish you lovers that you can't ever truly satisfy
I wish you kisses that never feel as good as mine
I wish you moments where I haunt your dreams
I wish that when you think of me... You're not okay
I wish you food that never quite hits the right spot
I wish for slightly flat pop even though you just opened it
I wish that you have nothing but small car problems
I wish you slightly sticky and warm work out equipment
I wish you lovers that you can't ever truly satisfy
I wish you kisses that never feel as good as mine
I wish you moments where I haunt your dreams
I wish that when you think of me... You're not okay
#anger
#honesty
#UnrequitedLove
#revenge
#bittersweet
268 reads
5 Comments
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