I don't know if I'm happy to be numb That your name has faded from me It doesn't matter anymore... it doesn't My chest lays here hollow of the pain That overwhelming sea of crushed silica Has fallen from between these ribs of mine Sand in the wind that left only traces behind The ache of the space the pain held lingers A pain that's a spiritual geode cracked open Revealing the crystals of healing within
Everything I feel is writhing in me Emotional snakes seeking escape Frantically I'm looking for the spiritual shovel Hacking at them until they're finally still To bury the emotions within my chest Hating you is easier than feeling this
With every booming crash With every silver slash in the sky You deserve to remember To be cursed with memory Of the way my hair smells The way I feel pressed against you Let this storm remind you Visions of my lips in your mind My laugh hidden in the the raindrops I hope it drives you mad
I tried to describe you again today... I've done it a thousand times or more There's a surging tsunami of emotions And I struggle with each wave inside me One after another containing hundreds of thoughts And I struggle to pick and choose the ones to say I fall upon water imagery today when you came to mind
You are a perfect rainy day at the beach to me The waves the color of your eyes as they roll and move To try to leave that gaze is shockingly difficult The thick wet sand pulling me down with each step Purple seashells...
Chain loop by bloodied chain loop We have anchored ourselves together Bounded by the sticky blood tasting fear That one day we would wake up alone They can call us the locusts of lovers For we wish to devour and consume The beating hearts in each others chests We could run but... we would be alone Is this company worth the pain we feel? I cannot escape these chains of your love And you cannot escape the chains of mine
I'd break the bones in my hands Into the form of brass knuckles Sharp enough to cut through you These violent thoughts plague me As they are the only comparison To the ever growing violence you Have shown my heart over the years