Submissions by BlueBeastGirl (Midnight Shades of Blue)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction I'm sometimes white, but always wrong. I can break a heart and hurt the strong. I can build love and tear it down. I can make a smile, but more often a frown: What Am I?
SELF POEM
Published
Yesterday 5:28am
Yesterday 5:28am
My Sweetest Friend is My Enemy
When I was little I called my anger a beast
A beast that lived inside my chest and
Clawed within my veins and throat
I used to picture myself caging her within my ribs
At one point I looked closer and what looked back at me
Wasn't a beast at all, but myself
My rage, anger, spite has created my foundation
I worry often on whether I am a bad person or not
Because my anger is threaded throughout my being
I can't seem to set a can down without slamming it
I can't even embroider without imagining it is my skin or theirs
I don't know if I would...
A beast that lived inside my chest and
Clawed within my veins and throat
I used to picture myself caging her within my ribs
At one point I looked closer and what looked back at me
Wasn't a beast at all, but myself
My rage, anger, spite has created my foundation
I worry often on whether I am a bad person or not
Because my anger is threaded throughout my being
I can't seem to set a can down without slamming it
I can't even embroider without imagining it is my skin or theirs
I don't know if I would...
#anger
#hate
#loneliness
#frustration
#fear
17 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
24th Dec 2020 6:10am
24th Dec 2020 6:10am
A Letter in a Wishing Bottle
Dear you,
I wish you so many good things
Person reading these words
That whatever warm drink you enjoy
Finds its way into your hands soon
In a pleasing, hand warming cup
I wish you calm and warm blankets
Your favorite foods and media
If it's books or movies or games
I hope that you are able to find it
This year has been so brutal for many of us
And I know that next year is unlikely to be different
So I'm taking this moment to think good things
To send good vibes out into the world
A message in a bottle out into the...
I wish you so many good things
Person reading these words
That whatever warm drink you enjoy
Finds its way into your hands soon
In a pleasing, hand warming cup
I wish you calm and warm blankets
Your favorite foods and media
If it's books or movies or games
I hope that you are able to find it
This year has been so brutal for many of us
And I know that next year is unlikely to be different
So I'm taking this moment to think good things
To send good vibes out into the world
A message in a bottle out into the...
#motivational
#inspirational
#humankind
#gratitude
#admiration
70 reads
7 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
20th Dec 2020 00:56am
20th Dec 2020 00:56am
The Alternate Path Bleeding Through
There are moments, seconds really
Where I feel the cold touch of knowledge
Of knowing our children will never exist
And I see them so clearly in my mind
In a second my brain has created a little girl
Her hair in braids and her bright dark eyes
And then she fades away like a ghost
A perfect little vision, a bleed through
From a time when our love won the war
All the little boys and girls my mind reveals
In the seconds that I remember I had it
That urge to create a being half you, half me
Once spending hours looking up skin tone names...
Where I feel the cold touch of knowledge
Of knowing our children will never exist
And I see them so clearly in my mind
In a second my brain has created a little girl
Her hair in braids and her bright dark eyes
And then she fades away like a ghost
A perfect little vision, a bleed through
From a time when our love won the war
All the little boys and girls my mind reveals
In the seconds that I remember I had it
That urge to create a being half you, half me
Once spending hours looking up skin tone names...
#sadness
#mother
#children
#dreams
#FeelingLost
54 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Dec 2020 9:43am
19th Dec 2020 9:43am
A Hot Minute in a Hourglass
The space between us increases as time goes on
The sands in the hourglass don't seem so drowning
And I warm my feet on their changing warmth
It's been a hot minute, but I'm enjoying it
My mind is clearing of the weirdness
That is your affect on my poor brain
That specific fogginess you bring me
Causing my mind to spiral again and again
Fractals blooming in my chest from the cracks
Rippling outward by the barest brush
The smallest encounter I have with you
But I'm good now, I'm more me than ever before
Healthy, recovering from it all;...
The sands in the hourglass don't seem so drowning
And I warm my feet on their changing warmth
It's been a hot minute, but I'm enjoying it
My mind is clearing of the weirdness
That is your affect on my poor brain
That specific fogginess you bring me
Causing my mind to spiral again and again
Fractals blooming in my chest from the cracks
Rippling outward by the barest brush
The smallest encounter I have with you
But I'm good now, I'm more me than ever before
Healthy, recovering from it all;...
#TimeHeals
#redemption
#emotions
56 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Dec 2020 8:37am
16th Dec 2020 8:37am
There it is; the root of it all
Right there...
That's where it hurts
The most, huh?
We've traveled down
This soul path of ours
And there it is
The pain you buried
So very long ago
You don't dare name it
But I see it all the same
I see what you hide
And you see mine
We stare at them awkwardly
Unable to break the silence
It feels like cords are springing
Up from the ground and
Tying us tightly together
We know too much
To just walk away
That's where it hurts
The most, huh?
We've traveled down
This soul path of ours
And there it is
The pain you buried
So very long ago
You don't dare name it
But I see it all the same
I see what you hide
And you see mine
We stare at them awkwardly
Unable to break the silence
It feels like cords are springing
Up from the ground and
Tying us tightly together
We know too much
To just walk away
#sadness
#dark
#spiritual #honesty
#spiritual #honesty
42 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
13th Dec 2020 7:46am
13th Dec 2020 7:46am
I Read
I've read so many stories growing up
Where woman thrived being dragons
Coiled around towers, fighting those who would be suiters
Where the princess lives as a frog because she loves a frog
I've read stories where woman were warriors
Never taking a knee and never turning away
Where their loved ones depended on their strength
I have these stories hoarded around my heart
My own personal dragons hoard
And sometimes before bed I tell them to myself
To remind myself that I should count my story amongst theirs
I am a warrior, a fighter, a poet ...
Where woman thrived being dragons
Coiled around towers, fighting those who would be suiters
Where the princess lives as a frog because she loves a frog
I've read stories where woman were warriors
Never taking a knee and never turning away
Where their loved ones depended on their strength
I have these stories hoarded around my heart
My own personal dragons hoard
And sometimes before bed I tell them to myself
To remind myself that I should count my story amongst theirs
I am a warrior, a fighter, a poet ...
#strength
#dragons
#mythology
#separation
#curse
44 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
11th Dec 2020 7:50pm
11th Dec 2020 7:50pm
Voices and mushrooms
I go back and forth in this mind of mine
With thoughts such as these who needs enemies?
One voice saying one while another responds
Let's die tonight, Let's not
Let's fight today, Let's give up
The thoughts never seem to stop
Round and round we go
Circling like wolves or cuttle fish
Dancing as we go in this clear door
It's a groovy cha cha slide
Ready for fisty cuffs with death one moment
And then ready to throw myself in their arms
It's a dramatic battle of the two ruling forces
Life or death either way it's my...
With thoughts such as these who needs enemies?
One voice saying one while another responds
Let's die tonight, Let's not
Let's fight today, Let's give up
The thoughts never seem to stop
Round and round we go
Circling like wolves or cuttle fish
Dancing as we go in this clear door
It's a groovy cha cha slide
Ready for fisty cuffs with death one moment
And then ready to throw myself in their arms
It's a dramatic battle of the two ruling forces
Life or death either way it's my...
#identity
#LifeStruggles
#freedom
#dance
#rebellion
55 reads
7 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
11th Dec 2020 8:59am
11th Dec 2020 8:59am
Paperplane thoughts on the wind
I still have to scold myself at times
Still have to capture the stray thoughts
Those tendrils carrying images of you
Warm and bright, floating in my mind at night
I fold them into paper planes in my skull
Before breathing them out to float to you
I'm the monster of your story, I know
Your love couldn't change the beast
The gods know my efforts of change
Seeking help to better this fractured mind
But it doesn't change the fact I hurt you
So I put these thought on the wind
As if I'm releasing flowers on cold water
I know they'll...
Still have to capture the stray thoughts
Those tendrils carrying images of you
Warm and bright, floating in my mind at night
I fold them into paper planes in my skull
Before breathing them out to float to you
I'm the monster of your story, I know
Your love couldn't change the beast
The gods know my efforts of change
Seeking help to better this fractured mind
But it doesn't change the fact I hurt you
So I put these thought on the wind
As if I'm releasing flowers on cold water
I know they'll...
#regret
#grief
#monsters
#responsibility
#curse
66 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
10th Dec 2020 2:12am
10th Dec 2020 2:12am
Who is your first love?
Honestly, I don't know the answer to that
My first kiss was an accident with my best friend Tina
She ran away and never talked to me again
And I loved her so much and so dearly
I just didn't know if I meant to kiss her or not
I had a weakness for a boy named Sawyer
But was that a crush or a longing for a friend?
Then there was my first boyfriend; James
And I didn't reallly have a choice in that
And I know I didn't love him that way
So that counts him out of the running, right?
Then there was Logan that I've this thing for ...
My first kiss was an accident with my best friend Tina
She ran away and never talked to me again
And I loved her so much and so dearly
I just didn't know if I meant to kiss her or not
I had a weakness for a boy named Sawyer
But was that a crush or a longing for a friend?
Then there was my first boyfriend; James
And I didn't reallly have a choice in that
And I know I didn't love him that way
So that counts him out of the running, right?
Then there was Logan that I've this thing for ...
#heartbroken
#frustration
42 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th Dec 2020 7:08am
9th Dec 2020 7:08am
Idk what to title this
#luck
#temptation
#responsibility
#curse
#trains
51 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
8th Dec 2020 10:21am
8th Dec 2020 10:21am
A vision before bed
#death
#fate
#confessional #nightmares
#confessional #nightmares
53 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Dec 2020 9:21pm
7th Dec 2020 9:21pm
The rage of an inner child
I don't know why I have these
But I have my cps case files
I have documentation I shouldn't
It fills three totes, stacked high
And sometimes I read them, ever so carefully
I read the way adults with too much power
Those gluttonous ticks filled with blood
The power pulsing, almost bursting their skin
I read their callous words carefully
I try to remember these exact moments
The places frozen in that dark time
That they speak about with such conviction
When an animal is hurt or trapped
We tend to not blame them for lashing out ...
But I have my cps case files
I have documentation I shouldn't
It fills three totes, stacked high
And sometimes I read them, ever so carefully
I read the way adults with too much power
Those gluttonous ticks filled with blood
The power pulsing, almost bursting their skin
I read their callous words carefully
I try to remember these exact moments
The places frozen in that dark time
That they speak about with such conviction
When an animal is hurt or trapped
We tend to not blame them for lashing out ...
#identity
#memories
#SelfReflection
#PTSD
#nightmares
49 reads
3 Comments
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