Submissions by BlueBeastGirl (Midnight Shades of Blue)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction I'm sometimes white, but always wrong. I can break a heart and hurt the strong. I can build love and tear it down. I can make a smile, but more often a frown: What Am I?
SELF POEM
Published
Today 3:47am
Today 3:47am
Vestige of Pain
#sadness
#despair
#emptiness #fear
#emptiness #fear
17 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
Yesterday 7:28pm
Yesterday 7:28pm
Unapologetic Darkness
#anger
#hate
#dark #bittersweet
#dark #bittersweet
29 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
24th Sep 2020 11:24pm
24th Sep 2020 11:24pm
Wishes for Home
Sitting on my porch
Seattle rain crying again
Incense hanging from my fingers
Needle wedged between my teeth
Resting against my lip
How I wish for so many things
I want to go home
Sit in the middle of the night
Eating candy corn
Sitting by a friend
Talking shit about life
Our bodies kept warm
By our laughter sounding out
Life will never be the same
Faces come and faces go
But still here I am missing home
Seattle rain crying again
Incense hanging from my fingers
Needle wedged between my teeth
Resting against my lip
How I wish for so many things
I want to go home
Sit in the middle of the night
Eating candy corn
Sitting by a friend
Talking shit about life
Our bodies kept warm
By our laughter sounding out
Life will never be the same
Faces come and faces go
But still here I am missing home
#holiday
#nostalgia
28 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2020 9:44am
22nd Sep 2020 9:44am
dreams are the minds manipulation of the heart
Laying here, staring at my phone
My eyes sore from screentime
Knowing... Knowing that I'll dream
If I just let go and let my mind slip
But knowing they will be there either way
Keeps me staring at this magic device,
Scrolling, scrolling, and scrolling
My anxiety flying higher and higher
Swirling up with ever upwards motion of my thumb
Need to tell the doctor to please give me a pill
To stop my dreams and clean my soul
My mind and my heart are equal parts liars
And I know the truth deep down inside me
But I know, gods I know,...
My eyes sore from screentime
Knowing... Knowing that I'll dream
If I just let go and let my mind slip
But knowing they will be there either way
Keeps me staring at this magic device,
Scrolling, scrolling, and scrolling
My anxiety flying higher and higher
Swirling up with ever upwards motion of my thumb
Need to tell the doctor to please give me a pill
To stop my dreams and clean my soul
My mind and my heart are equal parts liars
And I know the truth deep down inside me
But I know, gods I know,...
#addiction
#MentalHealth
#honesty #apocalypse
#honesty #apocalypse
50 reads
3 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
20th Sep 2020 00:33am
20th Sep 2020 00:33am
Dear readers
Hello!
My name is Blue and you've probably been reading my poems or maybe this is the first one you've clicked on
Either way... Hi
I genuinely enjoy the feedback you give and the insight that you have offered to me over the years.
Lately... I've really struggled with responding to comments on my poems
I write poetry because I don't know how not to
This is where I release tension in my brain
I write about dreams/nightmares I've experienced
Emotions I go through, mental health stuff
My weird complicated relationships and the ghosts of those...
My name is Blue and you've probably been reading my poems or maybe this is the first one you've clicked on
Either way... Hi
I genuinely enjoy the feedback you give and the insight that you have offered to me over the years.
Lately... I've really struggled with responding to comments on my poems
I write poetry because I don't know how not to
This is where I release tension in my brain
I write about dreams/nightmares I've experienced
Emotions I go through, mental health stuff
My weird complicated relationships and the ghosts of those...
#happiness
#kindness
#motivational #gratitude
#motivational #gratitude
67 reads
8 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Sep 2020 7:18pm
19th Sep 2020 7:18pm
My name
If you think of me
Whisper my name
If the thoughts
Grow out of control
Say it my name louder
If you can't help it
Scream my name
Whisper my name
If the thoughts
Grow out of control
Say it my name louder
If you can't help it
Scream my name
#confessional
#denial
#emotions
62 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Sep 2020 3:35am
19th Sep 2020 3:35am
Kill it with Fire
sometimes I'll hear a song or watch something
and all it does is make me remember you
I want to cut the neurons responsible
of this memory loop that I am in
how do I stop feeling this way?
one sided love... all in my head
just keep counting the things that make me love you
that I will never share with you, Ever
I'd rather eat my own tongue than ever admit
That my feelings live like maggots in my head
my love for you will always live in shadows
because there is no way... no way
not in this life anyway for us to be together...
and all it does is make me remember you
I want to cut the neurons responsible
of this memory loop that I am in
how do I stop feeling this way?
one sided love... all in my head
just keep counting the things that make me love you
that I will never share with you, Ever
I'd rather eat my own tongue than ever admit
That my feelings live like maggots in my head
my love for you will always live in shadows
because there is no way... no way
not in this life anyway for us to be together...
#grief
#addiction
#UnrequitedLove
#PTSD
#despair
57 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Sep 2020 8:14pm
15th Sep 2020 8:14pm
Brick Mosaic
Why do you text me?
Are you really that lonely?
What is it about us that we still do this
Back and forth over the years
A dance so fruitless
it creates deserts where we step
Rainforests where our tears fall
You are my poison, my medicine
I chose someone else
But still return those texts
There's nothing between us
But a vast history that'd fill libraries
We've been reduced to just memes past twelve
Empty silences between joking insults
I could swim endlessly in those eyes
But stand firmly on the sunflowers of his ...
Are you really that lonely?
What is it about us that we still do this
Back and forth over the years
A dance so fruitless
it creates deserts where we step
Rainforests where our tears fall
You are my poison, my medicine
I chose someone else
But still return those texts
There's nothing between us
But a vast history that'd fill libraries
We've been reduced to just memes past twelve
Empty silences between joking insults
I could swim endlessly in those eyes
But stand firmly on the sunflowers of his ...
#ghosts
#redemption
#curse
68 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Sep 2020 7:58pm
15th Sep 2020 7:58pm
Smoke Ghosts
The smoke outside is slipping through
The window over the carpet straight to my head
Pooling at the innermost base of my skull
It bleeds into my brain disappearing into my dream
It takes shape, one ever so familiar
The details hazy, but, oh, so you
Thick pale smoke, opaque and still
Until it breaks the trance of wistful staring
It moves; hands reaching out and tracing
In the way only you know how to
Over my jaw to the back of my neck
Gently pulling me forward into an embrace
The sweetness in your touch is incomparable
The...
The window over the carpet straight to my head
Pooling at the innermost base of my skull
It bleeds into my brain disappearing into my dream
It takes shape, one ever so familiar
The details hazy, but, oh, so you
Thick pale smoke, opaque and still
Until it breaks the trance of wistful staring
It moves; hands reaching out and tracing
In the way only you know how to
Over my jaw to the back of my neck
Gently pulling me forward into an embrace
The sweetness in your touch is incomparable
The...
#grief
#loneliness
#UnrequitedLove
56 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Sep 2020 4:03pm
12th Sep 2020 4:03pm
Through the smoke
The smoke falls down, settling like a cloud
I feel your hands reach out to me
Gripping my waist and pulling me close
The fire crackles in the distance
Crawling like a demon determined to eat
Everything it touches in it's path
A bottomless pit of unknowable hunger
And through the smoke, it's terrible breath
You reach out and pull me so close
Your hands and body sore and so tired
You have been fighting this monster
And I miss you deep inside me
Your hands come through dreams
To hold and comfort me in a way no one can ...
I feel your hands reach out to me
Gripping my waist and pulling me close
The fire crackles in the distance
Crawling like a demon determined to eat
Everything it touches in it's path
A bottomless pit of unknowable hunger
And through the smoke, it's terrible breath
You reach out and pull me so close
Your hands and body sore and so tired
You have been fighting this monster
And I miss you deep inside me
Your hands come through dreams
To hold and comfort me in a way no one can ...
#sadness
#UnrequitedLove
#bittersweet
65 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
27th Aug 2020 1:22am
27th Aug 2020 1:22am
Lessons learned
Don't bring up such things like
Trauma, PTSD and depression
Cover your mouth, your lip is bleeding
Everyone sees it don't gotta say it
Blood dripping down from where you bit too hard
The burn on your chest stinging
From where you dragged that hot needle
Skin rising and spall veins burning red
This is a pain I control, nothing else works
I wish alcohol helped but it doesn't
I leave the needle and lighter out
Wishing... Someone could stop it
The end blackened and warped
Cheap metal, gotta get better Steele
I'm so weak and I'm...
Trauma, PTSD and depression
Cover your mouth, your lip is bleeding
Everyone sees it don't gotta say it
Blood dripping down from where you bit too hard
The burn on your chest stinging
From where you dragged that hot needle
Skin rising and spall veins burning red
This is a pain I control, nothing else works
I wish alcohol helped but it doesn't
I leave the needle and lighter out
Wishing... Someone could stop it
The end blackened and warped
Cheap metal, gotta get better Steele
I'm so weak and I'm...
#hypocrisy
84 reads
7 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
21st Aug 2020 8:41pm
21st Aug 2020 8:41pm
Maybe
Maybe if I...
Lay here long enough
Close my eyes hard enough
Pretend hard enough
That the air around me
Were simply a casket
And that the breath in my lungs
Would cool and still themselves
Maybe then I can will my death
Lay here long enough
Close my eyes hard enough
Pretend hard enough
That the air around me
Were simply a casket
And that the breath in my lungs
Would cool and still themselves
Maybe then I can will my death
#despair
73 reads
5 Comments
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