Submissions by BlueBeastGirl (Running from the Reaper)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction I just don't know.
SELF POEM
Published
28th Jul 2021 1:55am
28th Jul 2021 1:55am
The Return of the Beast
When I was younger, more fragile
I used to call parts of me a beast
Fur, claws and fangs... The whole package
I used to treat my emotions as if...
They weren't my own but hers
This creature that lived inside my chest
Every anxiety attack, every lashing out
Was her trying to escape or take control
She was my protector, my shield of rage
But somewhere the lines blurred back
We were the same being once more
And it felt like my missing pieces were found
But lately my mind has been shifting again
The spiritual seams holding us...
I used to call parts of me a beast
Fur, claws and fangs... The whole package
I used to treat my emotions as if...
They weren't my own but hers
This creature that lived inside my chest
Every anxiety attack, every lashing out
Was her trying to escape or take control
She was my protector, my shield of rage
But somewhere the lines blurred back
We were the same being once more
And it felt like my missing pieces were found
But lately my mind has been shifting again
The spiritual seams holding us...
#strength
#spiritual
#illness
#MentalHealth
#PTSD
23 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
27th Jul 2021 5:10pm
27th Jul 2021 5:10pm
Golden Cages and Broken Dolls
Stupid ceremony and so much recompense
Apologies falling from my mouth
I wanted to be yours so badly
I just can't shake these thoughts
Is marriage really just a golden cage...
I'm not a bird here for I've never had wings
Just a Patchwork doll with busted seams
Left feeling like a doll dragged through icy water
Pushing needles into my skin just to keep going
Twisting them to make sure I bleed
Where would I even go if I were to leave
Marriage solves so many problems in life
He tells me he'll take care of me forever
But is...
Apologies falling from my mouth
I wanted to be yours so badly
I just can't shake these thoughts
Is marriage really just a golden cage...
I'm not a bird here for I've never had wings
Just a Patchwork doll with busted seams
Left feeling like a doll dragged through icy water
Pushing needles into my skin just to keep going
Twisting them to make sure I bleed
Where would I even go if I were to leave
Marriage solves so many problems in life
He tells me he'll take care of me forever
But is...
#anxiety
#marriage
#fear
24 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
27th Jul 2021 2:07am
27th Jul 2021 2:07am
Sewing Sanity
When I was nine my great grandma put a needle in my handles
She told me everyone should know these stitches
I watched her closely and mimiced her movements
Her hands moved gracefully in sheer spite of the arthritis
The needle reflecting the summer sunset from through the window
She'd tell me stories from Ireland and the bible
Fairytales and religion, about our family
All while she taught me how to sew
Sometimes it would be all of us there
All of us kids around the too small table
A massive pile of scrap fabric, spools, needles and such things ...
She told me everyone should know these stitches
I watched her closely and mimiced her movements
Her hands moved gracefully in sheer spite of the arthritis
The needle reflecting the summer sunset from through the window
She'd tell me stories from Ireland and the bible
Fairytales and religion, about our family
All while she taught me how to sew
Sometimes it would be all of us there
All of us kids around the too small table
A massive pile of scrap fabric, spools, needles and such things ...
#love
#grief
#memories
16 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
26th Jul 2021 8:58pm
26th Jul 2021 8:58pm
Strawberry lemonade
Little brother you're fourteen
Not a child and barely a teen
Tightening your grip on things you know
Trying to hide the emotions you still show
I know growing up can be so scary
Never met someone who so loved anything strawberry
Oh little brother, its easy to love you
Even when you proclaim so loudly that you're too blue
How you're feeling dead inside
Yes, I see all the things you hide
You're too much like me when I was your age
Though I may come off too much like a sage
I was painted by the same hand of destiny
All I want to do...
Not a child and barely a teen
Tightening your grip on things you know
Trying to hide the emotions you still show
I know growing up can be so scary
Never met someone who so loved anything strawberry
Oh little brother, its easy to love you
Even when you proclaim so loudly that you're too blue
How you're feeling dead inside
Yes, I see all the things you hide
You're too much like me when I was your age
Though I may come off too much like a sage
I was painted by the same hand of destiny
All I want to do...
#brother
#sister
#mirror
#aging
#philosophical
19 reads
2 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Jul 2021 2:08am
25th Jul 2021 2:08am
Things I tell my brother
Emotions are meant to be felt
Our minds are but an ocean of chemicals
Emotions floating around within it
Reach out and grab that feeling
Hold it gently and experience it
You brain can't help but produce feeling
To fight it is to not be human
What you do with feelings, with stimulus
Does define you at the end of the day
Be angry, be sad, be happy, feel pure joy
And then let it go to feel another
Our minds are but an ocean of chemicals
Emotions floating around within it
Reach out and grab that feeling
Hold it gently and experience it
You brain can't help but produce feeling
To fight it is to not be human
What you do with feelings, with stimulus
Does define you at the end of the day
Be angry, be sad, be happy, feel pure joy
And then let it go to feel another
#brother
#sister
#universe
31 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Jul 2021 1:53am
23rd Jul 2021 1:53am
Softness in Pale Yellow
As I lay in his arms
His heartbeat is all I hear
The sunlight is fading to a pale yellow
Its cold rays falling around us
And we slightly doze as we lay
And it's all good here in our room
I haven't much worry in this moment
Truly, I don't have any thoughts in my head
The world can burn around us
And we'd bask in the glow
His heartbeat is all I hear
The sunlight is fading to a pale yellow
Its cold rays falling around us
And we slightly doze as we lay
And it's all good here in our room
I haven't much worry in this moment
Truly, I don't have any thoughts in my head
The world can burn around us
And we'd bask in the glow
#happiness
#love
#strength
49 reads
7 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Jul 2021 1:36am
22nd Jul 2021 1:36am
The only path is marriage
Oh... Gods there's no escaping this
27 days and then this is it
Don't get me wrong I'm excited
But goodness this is all so much
Constant messages about opinions
What are my thoughts on this or that
Heres what the officiant wants to say
Gotta email them and tell them its okay
There's panic growing in this ribcage
A growing clouds of doom leaking from my bones
My lungs are filling up with cement
I hate choices as much as I hate not having them
Under an oak tree in a park with a vague name
The final twists will be put...
27 days and then this is it
Don't get me wrong I'm excited
But goodness this is all so much
Constant messages about opinions
What are my thoughts on this or that
Heres what the officiant wants to say
Gotta email them and tell them its okay
There's panic growing in this ribcage
A growing clouds of doom leaking from my bones
My lungs are filling up with cement
I hate choices as much as I hate not having them
Under an oak tree in a park with a vague name
The final twists will be put...
#wife
#ILoveYou
#illness
#MentalHealth
#honesty
49 reads
6 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
18th Jul 2021 5:45am
18th Jul 2021 5:45am
Sanctioned Pain
It's irony I think in this
That long ago it was different
The only thing that kept me alive
Was a needle held over fire
The gasps of pain filling the air
As I pressed it to my flesh
Now needles holding burning medicine
Is what keeps me alive today
The gasp after injection
The hidden thrill...
That I can hurt myself again
That long ago it was different
The only thing that kept me alive
Was a needle held over fire
The gasps of pain filling the air
As I pressed it to my flesh
Now needles holding burning medicine
Is what keeps me alive today
The gasp after injection
The hidden thrill...
That I can hurt myself again
#illness
#frustration
#confusion
#PTSD
#emptiness
49 reads
9 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Jul 2021 3:17am
16th Jul 2021 3:17am
Sunflower love
I love to look into your eyes
To see the brushes of green and brown
The light of green create petal like shapes
Your sunflower eyes always watch me
Loving me without any question
There's something to a person
Who's love is purely unquestionable
When I lay down at night there is no fear
Of where you're at or who you see
Because I know you're heart belongs to me
You love me in the way that sunflowers love the sun
When we're in the same room your eyes are there
I could only ever describe you as warm
The warmth one feels after years...
To see the brushes of green and brown
The light of green create petal like shapes
Your sunflower eyes always watch me
Loving me without any question
There's something to a person
Who's love is purely unquestionable
When I lay down at night there is no fear
Of where you're at or who you see
Because I know you're heart belongs to me
You love me in the way that sunflowers love the sun
When we're in the same room your eyes are there
I could only ever describe you as warm
The warmth one feels after years...
#relationships
#romantic
#ILoveYou #support
#ILoveYou #support
54 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
14th Jul 2021 9:11am
14th Jul 2021 9:11am
Mother's too fragile
My mother's too fragile
To know her daughter is sick
Itd cause her to spin out
Her mind to frizz out
Out, out, out my mother would go
Like topper carelessly spun
So I lay here reminding myself
While I cry silently to sleep
My mother's too fragile to comfort me
To know her daughter is sick
Itd cause her to spin out
Her mind to frizz out
Out, out, out my mother would go
Like topper carelessly spun
So I lay here reminding myself
While I cry silently to sleep
My mother's too fragile to comfort me
#mother
#bipolar
#illness #daughter
#illness #daughter
31 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
14th Jul 2021 8:51am
14th Jul 2021 8:51am
Love to War and Sticky Blood
#insomnia
#illness
#FeelingLost
#FeelingTrapped
#weakness
46 reads
2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
10th Jul 2021 1:23am
10th Jul 2021 1:23am
My family hates cops and so do I
Theres a fact that white people forget all the time
That the moment they view you as a threat or sense disrespect
The color of your skin won't protect you
Not from their fists, dicks, pepper spray or guns
One of my first memories is a cop breaking my mothers nose
As my grandmother begged him not to hurt her
I held my brother as he sobbed and I cannot tell you
How much that builds a girls hatred for those creatures
Uneducated, hateful bastards that they are
My moms only a felon because she wouldn't fuck him
He'd pull her over, she dealt with...
That the moment they view you as a threat or sense disrespect
The color of your skin won't protect you
Not from their fists, dicks, pepper spray or guns
One of my first memories is a cop breaking my mothers nose
As my grandmother begged him not to hurt her
I held my brother as he sobbed and I cannot tell you
How much that builds a girls hatred for those creatures
Uneducated, hateful bastards that they are
My moms only a felon because she wouldn't fuck him
He'd pull her over, she dealt with...
#anger
#hate
#PTSD
#nightmares
#fear
54 reads
8 Comments
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