it won't let go of me

I cut the rope that bound us
Yet it still wraps around my throat
At night... even during the day
It's random and out of the blue
That thoughts of you choke me
I reach to pull them away from me
But it grows tighter as the memories fade
You were my compass now I've lost my way
I'm chosing to let go but the rope loops again
Intangible, untangable pain... it's just pain
I'm left with the noose of your loss
Strands of vibrant mourning I can't touch
I want to let go but it won't let go of me