Heart Break- Make Me Cry

I want to hear about real life heart break...
I am not talking about how Daddy didn't want to play dolls
or how Mama didn't want to bake cookies with you...
About the Lover who walked out.
The pain of a cheating spouse.
Losing a loved one is accepted.

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I relive my life
A life that was very short
I relive this life
Everytime I'm in slumber

Our laughs our fights
Now disappear in the night
Her tears never had fell
Mine remind me I'm in hell

How does someone not care
For someone who gives it all
Someone who will always be hurt
Come the 27th year,
someone who had to leave this earth.

ANGEL

He had the face of an angel
he smiled and winked his eyes
raised his eyebrows, gave a sigh
He had the face of an angel
 
A glowing light shone round his face
no darkness near him, not a trace
He had the face of an angel
 
He had a look of wisdom behind his eyes
no need for singing lullabyes
He had the face of an angel
 
I felt his heartbeat next to mine
I felt his breath, I saw him shine
He had the face of an angel
 
I held him tight, he didn't cry
Despite I knew this was goodbye
He had the face of an angel
 
I held his head, he breathed his last
one hour of life, his life now past
He had the face of an angel
 
Lifeless he slept, as I cuddled and cried
though life had gone and breath expired
He still had the face of an angel
 
Still, he wouldn't know hate or fear or rejection
His final reincarnation on his way to perfection
He had the face of an angel
 
His eyes, his smile I'll never forget
My tears on his cheek were not ones of regret
He had the face of an angel
 
 
I'll never forget him,  I never can
my son who would never have to be a man
But he had the face of an angel
 
I then looked up and saw her pain
her face all wet from the eyes that rain
She had the face of an angel
 
She smiled, winked her eyes
she raised her eyebrows, gave a sigh
She had the face of an angel
 
I knew her loss, I knew her pain
I knew I loved her just the same
She had the face of an angel
 
We sit in peaceful quite at night
and remember his face in that glowing light
Our Son, with the face of an angel

Shakespeare in Love


Thinking I would suffocate from heat, or dehydrate
into a shriveled leaf, I wanted to crawl under a rock
like those little animals in the dessert, content
to watch the world turn when I felt you slip.

When the rain came I was wanton to drown, allow
the mud to rise above my shoulders, blocking
sound to sleep so I could cross over too, rolling
through light like milkweed until we were home.

Yet, just as heat is abated by rain, thus is rain
by heat, always in time to push the clock forward
another minute. How easily my hands could navigate
my own fate as effortlessly as the natural order of things.  

But,

I keep thinking of Romeo, had he only waited a few
more moments before swallowing his own flesh. Is this
how Shakespeare felt while penning his grief, too much
of a coward to surrender to his own death?
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Unlost In The Blue Shag Carpet

She smelt of lavender and moth balls
Just like she always did
Dressed up in her favourite frock
That was decades out of fashion
Lips smeared with bright red
And a blue rinse through her hair

I never really understood
Why she'd get so dressed up
For a quick trip to the shops
Where she'd buy a mountain of microwave dinners
And menthol cigarettes
That I'd nick when she wasn’t looking

And her house, my home for a time
Smelt comfortingly of age
With a hint of smokiness
Tea and packaged biscuits
Trapped in the blue shag carpet
Where I'd lie among the ash and dust motes
Reliving happier memories of Mary Poppins
And an old wooden rocking horse

And it was so sad
To watch her lose her mind
As her sight faded
Having to catch her
After she'd stumbled into a door jam
Wobbly with senility
Calling me by my mother's name

And it's strange, how I never really knew her
Until she was gone
Tears running down my face
As I touched the cool dead skin of her forehead
As she lay sleeping in her casket
My world aflood with stories
Steeped in the scent of lavender and moth balls
That I still can’t get enough of

And sometimes
I swear I can feel her watching over me
With a smile on her face
Telling me it’s all going to be alright

detached

What was it, something I did ? something I said?  a love you couldn't handle?
What made you speak each lie with a breath of fresh air?
My love was real , built unconditional. I saw and  loved you under the veil. 

 I thought , You were the best, your humor the smile the electricity,  the chemistry wrapped in sweat.

I knew of your past and the demons you so desperately tried to hide . I worked with you, I thought we fought our demons together side by side.

The betrayal was slowly seeping in poisoning each day  , I wanted to believe in my heart , I wanted to love you and heal together , but the truth couldn't remain blind. I let you give me excuse after excuse. I even excepted blame when there was no fault of my own. Subliminally giving you permission to continue your charades.

You needed my love my trust all of me. But you manipulated your words to feed my soul ingredients that never were a source of nourishment so my heart began to drift further and further until you knew in your heart that your last chance at true love was Truth .

I taste the bitterness then I regret not listening to my heart. My intuition that screamed with each lie that seeped through your mouth. 
I still can not  detest you, for if I did that would make me as much of a thief and lier as you. When I said I loved you my every word was true.
the love I can't forget.

like an unforseen death, you just left.

 Is it just me or could we have been each others best?
I try to reason, then I cry with regret you  stole my heart that I thought I gave.

Oh no, I still wont  detest, because love runs deep and unconditional. For I never gave you a veil.
I still wonder if underneath our naked skin, could our love have defied  the impossible?  If you gave me a fair chance to love whats hidden.

Instead you forced me to love the man you pretend to be stole my love with your fake facade. Is your ego still heightened knowing I love the mask, and you are nothing but a stranger.

When you take your last breath. will you be content? Or will you shed a tear, not for the time spent deceiving but a tear for the man who never allowed himself to live in his own skin. Knowing you never really lived, yet you simply existed.

 As the burden of falsehood weighs heavy on your heart, the ultimate betrayal is towards yourself. You're the thief who stole your own life from yourself.  I can forgive you , but can you forgive yourself?

A little dying today

Dirges for my hopes
wailed from my heart
today
choking up my throat
tearing up my eyes
today

A little dying within
happened very slowly
today
A small chant began
within my soul
today

The chant for a dying
soul, incantations for peace
on the travel to the netherworld
today
There is a soul on a passage
to the other side

The spirit of my love
The soul of my heart
The hopes of my dreams
The future of my being
They started dying today

Cos I heard her sleepy voice
besides you, when you took
up the phone
today
Her sleepy sexy voice
Saying who is it baby
and you answered 'no one'

I used to wrap my arms around his massive girth
and I squeezed him like I loved him for all it was worth

We played, we ate, and together, we loved to flirt
We walked the land and sometimes just kicked up the dirt

He had strength, speed, and thick black hair
And I loved awakening to his sexy eyes with the deep stare

Oh how I miss my first puppy love
I swear he was sent from heaven above

There was so much more that I wanted us to do
We were inseparable, from one, we were a romantic two

I'm pretty sure that no one could love like I did
But I was forced to let go, close the lid

Looking into his eyes, I made promises forever
But life happened, another intervened, the rest is a blurr

It has been four months, and I still wake up crying
And my heart goes to sleep feeling like it is dying

The thought of never saying goodbye
hurts so deep, I won't even lie

What he selflessly did for me; I will remember until my last day
I will never understand why someone, somewhere, felt the need to take him away

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[b]NEVER TOGETHER FOREVER[/b]

No couple lives together forever
There is no such thing as living happily ever after
One of us will move on before the other
The other will be the lone survivor
So promise me this, my lover
Whose ever first to cross that immortal river
Let them wait with patient heart
To greet the other
When it’s their turn to enter

Nothing Left

She was sent to punish me
She did her job quite well
She had no other motivation
As far as I can tell
She was sent to maim me
The scars she left run deep
Though she gave me fleeting joys
That I could never keep
She brought me swift destruction
Calamity and woe
And such bittersweet memories
I never could let go
She left me there to suffer
A slow and painful death
As sorrow ate away at me
Till there was nothing left

I see you as you walk in paths diverged
The one that I saw as beauty now turned beast

The face of scorn hidden by black lies
From the one who said she loved me
The one who said that she will be there for me
The one who spoke honey drenched words to me

Now never more has vernacular been spoken by the tongue so sharp
That has now wounded me flesh deep

And now as diverged paths collide
I drop to my knees and weep tears of sadness
I beg for mercy as to spare my soul
For now I see that the world has no place for love.

Do I miss you?


Someone ask,
Do I miss you?

I didn’t,
Couldn’t,
Answer.

Tears in my soul,
Ripped from my heart,
Pooled in my eyes,
Trailed down my cheeks.

Bowed my head,
Remembering.

Sighing.
Almost.
Silently.

Turned.
Walked away.

Whispering,
To no one,
To myself,
To everyone.

More,
Than you will,
Ever,
Know.

My Life Isn't The Same Without You

We had such a beautiful sweet life
Did everything together with my wife
Saw our lives unfolding, year after year
Looking to the future without any fear

We went through some tough times
Worked it out and looked for the signs
Drifted apart for times, don't remember when
Argued and didn't talk with each other again

Thinking about what else could be out there
Still love you but it seems you just don't care
It will all be ok in the end, I said
On the brink of a meltdown to my head

Not being as honest with myself as before
Even started to tell little white lies galore
Living my own life with no land insight
Deciding to live my life because the time is right

On my own and free to live life, my way
Crying at night and smiling during the day
Putting on a brave face to the ones who cared
What have I done, I am so friggin scared

Oh please, come home to me, my baby
I'm sorry for the way it went down
Can we try again and move to a new town
My life isn't the same without you, my lady.

Forbidden fruits
 
I love you beyond the stars
I love you near and far
From moon to sun
To kingdom come
1 catch tho....
This is a forbidden love
I'm not suppose to feel this way
Not suppose to let these feeling stray
But it gets hard the more I try
Drowning emotions feels like a lie
Maybe it's best maybe be a phase
But yet I still find myself in a twisted haze
Just what if... Things weren't this way
What if....I could put these feelings at bay
But is that what is best?
Is it best to forget
Best to leave
Best to quit
Best to grieve
I honestly just don't know
But so far the feelings still linger
The thoughts are still around
Alone at night outside with low sound
That's where I see these emotions in me
As wrong as the fruit on the forbidden tree

I am lost without you,with all the things you do I still can't believe how you grew on me like the vines that hung from the trees in the jungle in my mind, but those words you said stung so bad I just can't get out of bed, your words cut those vines so they can put me in binds, forcing me destroy every memory of you I could find,memories that at one point brought me bliss...

Goodbye...love...is a LIE..