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DEPRESSION

DCLXVI_1989
Garrett Asa Hughes
Thought Provoker
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Joined 17th Aug 2017
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Blank Page

A blank page
More significant than my words
More experienced to what's observed
With deadened nerves

A broken pen
Spilling it's ink within
Thoughts of action met refrained
And now I'm stained

Fractured pencil
Resembling my mental
It always seems the issue
Happiness, i miss you

Where has it gone?
Goodbye, so long
So long ago
Out of control
Whatever for, seems wrong

A deepened sigh
Drawing a breath of life
Into cold blank half-closed eyes
I wonder why
Written by DCLXVI_1989 (Garrett Asa Hughes)
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DCLXVI_1989
Garrett Asa Hughes
Thought Provoker
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Joined 17th Aug 2017
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Disparity in Beauty

I watch despair
Brushing her hair
And I'm intrigued
 
I wonder if she'll notice me
 
Weaving long flowings locks
Inside her cage
And I'm amazed
 
I wonder if she feels the same
 
She turns her head to stare
Her gaze seeks right on through
Invisible to what she knew
 
I wonder if it's true
 
And at last
I'm noticed with a gasp
As we embrace
 
We don't even know our names
 
She'll never let me go
Her head held to my chest
The mess that i believe
 
So hard to breathe
 
Clutching her back
Swaying in dance
The art of the panic attack
 
Feels right on track
 
I watch despair
Knowing she's always there
Unaware
Of my stare
 
Without her care
Written by DCLXVI_1989 (Garrett Asa Hughes)
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Grace
IDryad
Tyrant of Words
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Joined 25th Aug 2011
Forum Posts: 17012

DCLXVI_1989 and _feral thank you for your entry.

Gentle
Lost Thinker
Joined 2nd June 2020
Forum Posts: 16

You are welcome

poetOftragedy
Dangerous Mind
South Africa 3awards
Joined 13th May 2018
Forum Posts: 80

head above water

Walking around like nothing happened.
Faking a smile at every turn.
Showing a brave face,
When everyone is breaking down around me.
Yet deep inside I'm drowning.
I'm just keeping my head above water.

I've hide away my tears.
Walked across my ocean of fears.
My pain, no one else sees.
I've stood my ground,
I've let everyone find shelter under my wing
What they don't know is,
Under this tough guy act
Under these cleverly painted walls.
I'm cracking apart inside.
Under this bold stance,
I'm drowning deep inside.
My heavy despairing heart is pulling me down.
Dragging around my sinking stone.
But I keep walking around like nothing happened.
Faking a smile at every turn.
The tough guy act.
Yet deep inside i know,
I'm just keeping my head above water.
Written by poetOftragedy
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poetOftragedy
Dangerous Mind
South Africa 3awards
Joined 13th May 2018
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I'm not dead just far from being alive

I'm not dead
Just far from being alive.......
I'm not dead just
Don't know why I'm alive
Nor why I should even remain alive.....
I'm not dead,
 just can't tell the difference anymore.
I'm emotionless, empty,
With no dream nor hope
I have no desire and no reason for laughter,
I can't even lift my hand to try and make an attempt
I just wanna lay in the cold hard ground,and watch as
Everything slowly fades away....
Where there was once love,
Only an empty void occupies that space.
Joy has turned to sadness,
Dreams and hope all shattered.
Reasons and desires all broken.
Should I end it?
Should I try to make everything better?
Would it even matter at all?
How come is the sky and the ground are so far apart?
I could jump and reach the sky and ask God for the reason why I'm alive?
Does it get better, does it all go away?
My own words are my sinking stones.
My hands will one day guide me home.
I'm not dead,
Just far from being alive.
Written by poetOftragedy
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toniscales
Lost Girl
Fire of Insight
United States 36awards
Joined 16th Dec 2014
Forum Posts: 431

Hi Grace. May we submit short prose?

toniscales
Lost Girl
Fire of Insight
United States 36awards
Joined 16th Dec 2014
Forum Posts: 431

The Parcel

She felt so alone.

It was time, she knew. Her only child was grown and had a life and family of her own. But everyone else was gone.

She had always suffered from that irrevocable aloneness. It had come with many names, many different diagnoses... A myriad different names for something so ineffable, something so difficult to describe, but something so familiar, a friend who had always been with her when no one else had.

That friend: the constant companion of loneliness, emptiness, a sense of bleakness and difficulty to feel pleasure in daily life. The sliding of tears when others felt joy.

Such strange music. A dance she knew well. The slow hours of a day, the too-piquant drip of afternoon light at the windows.

She looked at herself in the mirror.

Baffling. She didn't look her age, she was still oddly pretty and youthful-looking, some strange trick or deception of the light. Perhaps the excess sleep she committed oftentimes to simply escape the perpetual sense of despair... But still, it didn't matter. It was time. Her very bones felt heavy with weariness and exhaustion.

She lied back in her bed and stared around at her bare apartment. Poverty and sadness went hand in hand, it seemed. And what was she hoping to find? Only silence greeted her, an empty silence, a silence without a voice, without any answers to all the questions that had plagued her during her many years of existence.

It was time to go. She knew she could slip easily into a dreamless sleep, like hands slowly moving over water. Like a song. But this time, she wouldn’t wake up.

No more of that sad, soft dripping of light at the edges of her peripheral vision. No more sighing during the endless day.

No more yearning. No more haunted, visceral longing. That terrible, soft, relentless ache which had exhausted her so, gone.

Gone.

All gone.

Everything was taken care of. Everything was clean, dealt with beforehand.
Everything was ready.

Except for one thing.

One unopened parcel delivered that day lay waiting on her nightstand. The only thing left to take care of. Open it, see what it contained, file it away. Be done with it.

As she would soon, so blessedly, be done with herself.

She reached for the parcel and opened it delicately and cautiously, afraid its contents would somehow deter or alter her plans. It contained a single object: a strange little black book, worn, with gilded edges. A threadbare black strap was wrapped securely around it.

She opened it to the first page.

"Christina, I'm so sorry I was never there for you," she read in what she soon realized was her father's handwriting. "I left you and your mother when you were such a tender age. The guilt of what I did has never left me. You grew up without a father, without someone to guide you. You deserved to have a father figure, and I robbed you of this. On my dying wish, I want you to have this journal, which I kept for you during my later years, and this money. Take it and make some happiness for yourself."

She stared down at the check that was creased and folded between the pages and slowly opened it with her fingertips.

A tear slid from her eye.

As the numbers danced in front of her, for the first time in her life, she felt something akin to hope. She thought of little birds in cages of a rainbow of different colors. Of a myriad things she could do with her hands. She imagined pretty pastel flowers in glass mason jars filled with fairy lights. And furry cats curled up like commas at her feet under beautiful hand stitched quilts.

And instead of sleeping, she put two feet down on the cold hardwood floor, felt warmth and joy infuse her being, and stood up.
Written by toniscales (Lost Girl)
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toniscales
Lost Girl
Fire of Insight
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Joined 16th Dec 2014
Forum Posts: 431

I wanted to compliment _feral's entry. Beautiful. Thanks.

Grace
IDryad
Tyrant of Words
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Joined 25th Aug 2011
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toniscales said:Hi Grace. May we submit short prose?
of course

Grace
IDryad
Tyrant of Words
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Joined 25th Aug 2011
Forum Posts: 17012

poetOftragedy and toniscales thank you for your respective entry.

inechoingsilence
Thought Provoker
United States 4awards
Joined 17th Apr 2019
Forum Posts: 327

Don't Let Go

In the depths of quietest night  
while the world I know is asleep  
The silence profoundly deep  
I hear you from another galaxy  

Your voice is my clarion call  
begging me not to let you fall  
I silently scream with all I am -
can you hear me across the universe?  
 
Each moment is forever, so it seems  
Broken heart full of shattered dreams  
You yearn to cease, to disappear,  
to sleep forever, as if never here  
 
Hang on just a little bit longer  
I know you are so much stronger  
then all adversaries in your mind  
Stay with me, please don’t let go  
Just breathe for this second in time  
You did it once, you can do it again  
 
Moments barely change at first  
each second of time exactly the same  
In time, when least expected  
you will heal, truly live once more
Written by inechoingsilence
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inechoingsilence
Thought Provoker
United States 4awards
Joined 17th Apr 2019
Forum Posts: 327

Me and Madness

She comes to me suddenly  
I can never anticipate  
only able to respond
after she’s settled awhile  
 
She is completely unwelcome  
yet I cannot send her away  
To banish her,I banish myself  
For she my madness  
though I am not hers.  
 
Sometimes I barely sleep  
My mind, uncontrollably  
Arranges words, verses  
fingers stained with ink  
I am merely the conduit  
 
Other times I barely wake  
Days pass, with no difference  
I am clueless to what I did  
Nothing tangible to remind me  
I fly so high, then shatter.  
 
She speaks in riddles  
I understand her perfectly  
Her words are vague, yet  
clear to me, it is enough  
Why can others not keep up?  
 
It took a while to accept  
the frequent visitations  
I am not the madness  
Yet the madness is me
Written by inechoingsilence
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