Submissions by Kaden_Malis (Kaden Malis)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction Kaden Malis - writes poetry dealing with addiction, depression, anxiety and all the struggles that come along with them.
SELF POEM
Published
12th Jul 2021 1:49am
12th Jul 2021 1:49am
King of pain
All hail
The King of Pain
So disconnected
It's become lame
Friends words burn
Like acid fire
Billowing smoke
Just grows higher
Fortuitous find
Or an act of good will
Goes unnoticed
When you're looking for a kill
I'm an easy prey
Go ahead and take your shot
And if you get your mark
Just leave my body to rot
I've got nothing to offer
Better off dead
Save yourself
From this messed up head
Don't be waiting
For a twenty one gun salute
...
The King of Pain
So disconnected
It's become lame
Friends words burn
Like acid fire
Billowing smoke
Just grows higher
Fortuitous find
Or an act of good will
Goes unnoticed
When you're looking for a kill
I'm an easy prey
Go ahead and take your shot
And if you get your mark
Just leave my body to rot
I've got nothing to offer
Better off dead
Save yourself
From this messed up head
Don't be waiting
For a twenty one gun salute
...
#depression
#regret
#shame
#despair
#emptiness
34 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
11th Jul 2021 4:56pm
11th Jul 2021 4:56pm
Can't see
Held my breath
And hoped for Heaven
Please God,
Show mercy and give your blessing
Awoke with tubes
In my nose and arms
Heard them whisper
"Why would he ever
Wish himself harm?"
Spoke with special doctors
I've always called them shrinks
They were searching for a reason why
There had to be a hidden link
Diagnosis wasn't clear
Depression, bipolar
And anything else I wanted to hear
Gave me pills so I wouldn't feel
Told me take these and I would heal ...
And hoped for Heaven
Please God,
Show mercy and give your blessing
Awoke with tubes
In my nose and arms
Heard them whisper
"Why would he ever
Wish himself harm?"
Spoke with special doctors
I've always called them shrinks
They were searching for a reason why
There had to be a hidden link
Diagnosis wasn't clear
Depression, bipolar
And anything else I wanted to hear
Gave me pills so I wouldn't feel
Told me take these and I would heal ...
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
#emptiness
46 reads
5 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
31st May 2021 2:12pm
31st May 2021 2:12pm
Too far gone
Life of the party
Contagious laughter
Burning the candle from both ends
Had some psychic pain
Burning in his brain
That seemed impossible to mend
All alone is when
The demons took over
Suggesting their evil ways
A struggle for control
To avoid their goal
And keep the enemy at bay
Friends became worried
Saw the erosion
Of your spirit
Tried to help you
From fading to pale
But you didn't want to hear it
Too far gone
You just wanted to be alone
So you could take...
Contagious laughter
Burning the candle from both ends
Had some psychic pain
Burning in his brain
That seemed impossible to mend
All alone is when
The demons took over
Suggesting their evil ways
A struggle for control
To avoid their goal
And keep the enemy at bay
Friends became worried
Saw the erosion
Of your spirit
Tried to help you
From fading to pale
But you didn't want to hear it
Too far gone
You just wanted to be alone
So you could take...
#depression
#drugs
#addiction #MentalHealth
#addiction #MentalHealth
92 reads
6 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
31st May 2021 1:34pm
31st May 2021 1:34pm
Silence reigns
I wake to the empty
Spot in the bed
Your scent still lingers there
Keep waiting for you
To call out to me
But silence reigns
I walk through the motions
Of every blurry day
Expecting a phone call any minute
Come home to an empty house
No TV or radio
And silence reigns
I tried to block out
That horrible night
Found you in the bedroom floor
You wanted some peace
From a thundering mind
And now silence reigns
Spot in the bed
Your scent still lingers there
Keep waiting for you
To call out to me
But silence reigns
I walk through the motions
Of every blurry day
Expecting a phone call any minute
Come home to an empty house
No TV or radio
And silence reigns
I tried to block out
That horrible night
Found you in the bedroom floor
You wanted some peace
From a thundering mind
And now silence reigns
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
#weakness
66 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th May 2021 3:49pm
29th May 2021 3:49pm
Sea of fear
It hurts to feel
When sorrow controls you
Sunlight refuses to shine
Soul is frozen in eternal cool
I want the smile you see
To be real
Not this fake imposter
You can't heal
I feel like
A hollow ghost
Ceaselessly roaming
Searching for my former host
Because what you see
Is not me
I used to laugh and smile
No worries or cares
But roaming the wild
I know you're worried
That hurts even more
Cause I feel like
I've become your chore
I should bring you comfort ...
When sorrow controls you
Sunlight refuses to shine
Soul is frozen in eternal cool
I want the smile you see
To be real
Not this fake imposter
You can't heal
I feel like
A hollow ghost
Ceaselessly roaming
Searching for my former host
Because what you see
Is not me
I used to laugh and smile
No worries or cares
But roaming the wild
I know you're worried
That hurts even more
Cause I feel like
I've become your chore
I should bring you comfort ...
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
#vulnerability
59 reads
4 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
29th May 2021 1:12am
29th May 2021 1:12am
Last time
Here we go again
I haven't changed
And neither have you
We both have
Crutches in our relationship
That we use as glue
Same old story
Get another high
Just to chase away the blues
I know this can't last forever
Everything has consequences
And we'll soon pay our dues
Wake up! I'm tired
Of living this way
It's time to start anew
Say something back
Don't just stare at me
With that ghostly pale hue
No! It can't be like this
Get up! Don't just lay there
You gotta...
I haven't changed
And neither have you
We both have
Crutches in our relationship
That we use as glue
Same old story
Get another high
Just to chase away the blues
I know this can't last forever
Everything has consequences
And we'll soon pay our dues
Wake up! I'm tired
Of living this way
It's time to start anew
Say something back
Don't just stare at me
With that ghostly pale hue
No! It can't be like this
Get up! Don't just lay there
You gotta...
#drugs
#heroin
#addiction
65 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
26th May 2021 9:59pm
26th May 2021 9:59pm
Rise above the wreckage
I saw the moon today
Blood red streaked across the sky
Time has come, none to waste
Dry the river of tears from your eyes
Don't hold onto things
Things don't last
Rise above the wreckage
And forget the past
Hold close to me
Lift me higher
The noose around my neck
Keeps getting tighter
I'm slipping away
Time crawls so slow
Relieve me of this pain
It's ok to let go
Don't hold onto me
I can't last
Rise above the wreckage
And forget the past
Blood red streaked across the sky
Time has come, none to waste
Dry the river of tears from your eyes
Don't hold onto things
Things don't last
Rise above the wreckage
And forget the past
Hold close to me
Lift me higher
The noose around my neck
Keeps getting tighter
I'm slipping away
Time crawls so slow
Relieve me of this pain
It's ok to let go
Don't hold onto me
I can't last
Rise above the wreckage
And forget the past
#anxiety
#depression
#SelfHarm
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
59 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
25th May 2021 9:36pm
25th May 2021 9:36pm
Uninvited guest
There's always someone there
Watching my every move
He knows what I'm thinking
And sees everything I do
I tell everyone I'm good
Never felt better
But he knows the truth
The noose is getting tighter
I run but he follows
Always in my sight
Try to walk the straight and narrow
But he pulls me to the side
He pulls me under
My uninvited guest
I know I'll be forever
Forbidden to take rest
What else can I do
I'm just playing host
Eternally possessed
And haunted by my ghost
Watching my every move
He knows what I'm thinking
And sees everything I do
I tell everyone I'm good
Never felt better
But he knows the truth
The noose is getting tighter
I run but he follows
Always in my sight
Try to walk the straight and narrow
But he pulls me to the side
He pulls me under
My uninvited guest
I know I'll be forever
Forbidden to take rest
What else can I do
I'm just playing host
Eternally possessed
And haunted by my ghost
#anxiety
#depression
#SelfHarm
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
76 reads
10 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
24th May 2021 1:12am
24th May 2021 1:12am
Reservations
I see your face all the time
Apparitions gone
With a silent glance
My memories filled with
Laughter and sadness
Wishing for another chance
Reservations made for two
You and me
Together for all time
We pushed the boundaries
Of this world
Knocked on heaven's door
But it only opened for you
A tragedy that none could foresee
You went and left this place without me
Now I'm left to carry on
A pale reflection of myself
We made our reservation
Never guessed they'd be
For...
Apparitions gone
With a silent glance
My memories filled with
Laughter and sadness
Wishing for another chance
Reservations made for two
You and me
Together for all time
We pushed the boundaries
Of this world
Knocked on heaven's door
But it only opened for you
A tragedy that none could foresee
You went and left this place without me
Now I'm left to carry on
A pale reflection of myself
We made our reservation
Never guessed they'd be
For...
#grief
#loneliness
#despair
#emptiness
#bittersweet
98 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
17th May 2021 1:12am
17th May 2021 1:12am
I'll never see tomorrow
I'll never see tomorrow
I'm living for today
Oh I'm never gonna see tomorrow
Cause tomorrow's always a day away
Black shadows cast their gaze
Upon my withered soul
All I alone I wander this maze
All the while going deeper in this hole
I'll never see tomorrow
I'm living for today
Oh I'm never gonna see tomorrow
Cause tomorrow's always a day away
Light no longer shines
Upon my faded face
Stared at the sun till I was blind
Now I'm losing this life's race
I'll never see tomorrow
I'm dying...
I'm living for today
Oh I'm never gonna see tomorrow
Cause tomorrow's always a day away
Black shadows cast their gaze
Upon my withered soul
All I alone I wander this maze
All the while going deeper in this hole
I'll never see tomorrow
I'm living for today
Oh I'm never gonna see tomorrow
Cause tomorrow's always a day away
Light no longer shines
Upon my faded face
Stared at the sun till I was blind
Now I'm losing this life's race
I'll never see tomorrow
I'm dying...
#sadness
#anxiety
#depression
#despair
#emptiness
75 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th Apr 2021 9:40pm
9th Apr 2021 9:40pm
Halfway gone
Shadows of my wrongs
Come upon me
When I'm alone
They seek to destroy
What was a man
Now a little boy
Mind wages war
Two halves of myself
That are completely torn
One wants to live
Sees life as a
Beautiful gift
The other sees a cage
Wants nothing more
Than to escape
HELP!
I can't do this alone
Desperate and insecure
I'm halfway gone
Come upon me
When I'm alone
They seek to destroy
What was a man
Now a little boy
Mind wages war
Two halves of myself
That are completely torn
One wants to live
Sees life as a
Beautiful gift
The other sees a cage
Wants nothing more
Than to escape
HELP!
I can't do this alone
Desperate and insecure
I'm halfway gone
#anxiety
#depression
#SelfHarm
#addiction
#MentalHealth
112 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
6th Apr 2021 8:20pm
6th Apr 2021 8:20pm
Scars in her eyes
Beauty was in her smile
Love in her soul
She said no, but didn't win the fight
Now, there's one thing she can't hide
Scars in her eyes
She just wants to cry
Pain is in her smile
Hurt in her soul
She said no, but didn't win the fight
And she has scars in her eyes
Love in her soul
She said no, but didn't win the fight
Now, there's one thing she can't hide
Scars in her eyes
She just wants to cry
Pain is in her smile
Hurt in her soul
She said no, but didn't win the fight
And she has scars in her eyes
#sadness
#abuse
#MeToo
#suffering
#hurt
133 reads
3 Comments
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