Bottoms not a place

Pouted long enough..,
God must think I'm really tough.
.
Am I strong enough tonight .
Am I strong enough to fight.

If I stay clean it may,
just be allright.
Can I white knuckle it ,
Through another night.

I tell myself one more time...,
Love can stop the hands of time.
.
Life will never be how you want it.
Just gotta get up quit fucking crying about it.

Admit i got A problem.
And fucking do something about it.
I wished I'd just forget about it.

Your love, your touch ,
To live without it.
The pain so real ,
Can't breath , now sigh and sulk about it.

The love, the loss & the hope .
Deaths sweet kiss, sealed with dope.

Wish I could just make it right.
Will I make it through another night.

The feeling of loss and my savior on that cross.
The sin , the lies , so much loss.

Starring through all the pain
My Tears falling like rain.

I wonder if you think of me.
God will I ever be free.

Those feelings that live so deep in me.
The lies again I tell myself, get up & fight & try for me.

The freedom from dread that lives in
me .
Sit and stare, will you be there, in that empty seat next to me.

I always save your seat.
For that day when you've been beat.

Will it ever let go ,
will I ever know.

Winded and beat I knelt at his feet.
God I know, I admit it , I am beat.

Your grace your love well now  I need it.
Bottoms not a place,
Your there when you feel it.