Pebble On The Path Of Life

Hey dad, it's me again
Remember when you called me a fucking idiot?
Well it's still ringing in my head.
You may only see my stone cold reflection,
But inside there's a world where my soul hides.
Breaking down, fighting off all the words,
Make believe that they're all lies.
I know you don't realize my pain,
you're too busy trying to create a fantasy that you want me to be able to relate.
I'm not perfect like my sister,
She's an angel, a gift,
something you could never hit.
While I'm a burden and trash,
You wouldn't think twice before letting your knuckles dig into my unwanted flesh.
You give me pity tainted with hate
Saying things like 'talk to me whenever, I was a kid once, I know about these kinds of days.'
Don't you realize you're the reason for this torture?
This burning I feel, it can be no other.
I've refused to cry or breakdown
I take it all in, and I'll just frown.
I'll respond the way you want until it's the last straw.
I can withstand the name calling, or the dark insults you don't think are wrong.
I'm not perfect I know that as a fact.
But when I become something more I'll remember that,
You were just a pebble on the path of life.
When I succeed to be greater, I'll hope for you to die.
I know you'll say something along these lines 'it's because of me that, that ugly duckling can fly'
You'll take the credit, like you always do but don't worry,
Because I know the truth.
I'll crush you down and hear you scream things like 'fuck you, you fat useless teen!'
and I'll say
'Dad I'm not a teen anymore, I've grown into something much more.
You can't handle me now, I'll just tear out your throat.
You're lucky moms been there to hold me back. Or your old wrinkly ass would be stabbed in the back.'
You'll say things like 'But I thought you were my daughter,
you're something I adore!'
I'll just laugh as you're taken away,
claim you're crazy and that you shouldn't see the light of day anymore.
You'll be left alone in a home.
Mom will stay with me because I'm the kid she adored.
Sister got all the attention while I was put aside
But even mom gave me that little bit of love all children need to survive.
So I'm fine now, I promise,
I won't cremate you alive.
I'll watch you suffer and whither like you did to me as a child.
Thanks for allowing me to see everything in my mind,
All that darkness that just creeped inside, dead, gone, never to be alive.
My ocean is calm, my skies are bright.
Now that I've ridden the blackness that I allowed you to leak inside.
I'm a new kind of person but I'm fearful of your traits, getting passed on to the kids I'll have some day.
I'll fight it off and provide them with light,
saying granddad's dead, severing all ties.
To provide them with the opposite of the life I endured,
This future generation shouldn't have to live with the lives that men like you so seeked to destroy.