Loving You.

You were so supposed to love me...
so many times you tried to kill me.  
And you passed my sex around.
Momma - I will never understand.
 
All I ever wanted was to be loved!
 
You passed away.  Your whole family...
thought you were faking even as you took
your final breath - I wish I could have...
...kept you safe from death!!!
 
I never stopped loving you!
 
So many unanswered questions...
keep me awake at night.
You'd been through it first -
how could you do that all to me?
 
All I ever wanted was to be loved!
 
I think back to times you laughed...
and then beat me - for things you knew...
I'd never done.  Was that jealousy?
It didn't needn't be...
 
I always loved you and...I will...
I hate myself that...I always will!