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On the Lessons of Pacing
You can take five steps
if you know how to do it
one-two-three-four
pivot-on-five.
Go back the other way
pivot again
the opposite way
this time
so the equilibrium
there in your ears
does not swirl
and throw you into
a world of vertigo.
Keep going.
Look out the tiny slit
of frosted glass window
so high up at six stories
not even the shadow
of a passing cloud is cast
but once the beating shadow
of a bird balancing omen
on the outside ledge
the shadows fluttering
like the bird-god Tarkenesia
playing a squeeze-box
and you think
how appropriate
squeezed, squeezed within a box
with no hot water
but knowing ramen will soften
in time
even in cold water
and on Thursdays
the minimum-wage woman
will come by with her cart
and brown paper sacks
with commissary
and visit a bit.
She will be the one
you will fantasize of
someday being able to thank
just for her kindness
the how-you-doing-today
MR D and this ain't forever you know.
And how the clang of doors
and the shuffle and squeak
of Bob Barker clad feet
moving by and the next-door cell
sobbing during the night
muffled so you know
he wants no one to hear
or see, the eyes peeking in
to violate your privacy.
And when
it is finally late enough
with nothing left but regret
you pace again
no clocks to tell you
time to sleep, just darkness,
just the body clock
running down, springs relaxing
from knots of anxiety
and you think of Jesus
and how he promised
in the way of the prisoner,
Yea, though you make up
your bed in hell,
even there I am with you, Big Dawg.
Got your back.
We can do this.
Chinga su madre
if you know how to do it
one-two-three-four
pivot-on-five.
Go back the other way
pivot again
the opposite way
this time
so the equilibrium
there in your ears
does not swirl
and throw you into
a world of vertigo.
Keep going.
Look out the tiny slit
of frosted glass window
so high up at six stories
not even the shadow
of a passing cloud is cast
but once the beating shadow
of a bird balancing omen
on the outside ledge
the shadows fluttering
like the bird-god Tarkenesia
playing a squeeze-box
and you think
how appropriate
squeezed, squeezed within a box
with no hot water
but knowing ramen will soften
in time
even in cold water
and on Thursdays
the minimum-wage woman
will come by with her cart
and brown paper sacks
with commissary
and visit a bit.
She will be the one
you will fantasize of
someday being able to thank
just for her kindness
the how-you-doing-today
MR D and this ain't forever you know.
And how the clang of doors
and the shuffle and squeak
of Bob Barker clad feet
moving by and the next-door cell
sobbing during the night
muffled so you know
he wants no one to hear
or see, the eyes peeking in
to violate your privacy.
And when
it is finally late enough
with nothing left but regret
you pace again
no clocks to tell you
time to sleep, just darkness,
just the body clock
running down, springs relaxing
from knots of anxiety
and you think of Jesus
and how he promised
in the way of the prisoner,
Yea, though you make up
your bed in hell,
even there I am with you, Big Dawg.
Got your back.
We can do this.
Chinga su madre
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