conversation with "source"(god)

       
       
       
       
       if I'd really met "my maker"(god); I'd really like to know why source decided it was a good idea to bring all of this into existence-and "souls" easily subjected to a process being sperm rushing off instinct to form into a chaotic reality at its root-just to go at any given second, or slow death.... that'd be the main question....        
       
    there must be a point to this experience beyond humans' beliefs/comprehension.... can't imagine what that answer would be.... the mind may want to "ascend" or "retreat"-but this body with its nervous system, won't make it easy to leave....        
       
    why did you feel it was a good idea to create a dualistic reality- the illusion of "joy" and very "real" "suffering ".... where did you(source) even come from?        
       
   seriously.... why?        
       
       
  it's ultimately unfortunate to exist here....