Myself, the Polysexual, Transsexual, Transgender Male that is me...

Why, must I
Why?!
Why, must I
Be the one...

Be the one to show
Ohh...
How to tolorate,
How to accept.

Be the one to show...
Ohh...
How to be strong,
How to get along,
And how to get through it.

Being who and what I am...
Is possibly the hardest
And the most difficult of tasks
That has been set before me...

That task you see,
Is not only figurin out who I am,
What to do, What to make of everthing.

What I believe in, What I enjoy,
How I behave.

No!...
This is much more.
Much more straining on the heart, the body, brain, and soul...

For me,
This is my livelyhood.
My task, my meaning here.

To help others and maybe in return,...
I'll make it through...

Its more difficult to me to make choices...
For me, every decision....
And I mean every decision...
I make...
Decides my fate...

Being who and what I am,
Nothing can make it easier.
I am everyhing and nothing at one time...
I live as though I had no childhood...
Maybe 'cause I didnt...

I work everyday, every hour, every minute...
And every...
second...

My livelyhood is of that,
That working every damn second of the day...

My life, you see, is not "normal" persay,
But I guarentee you, it is not wasting away.

I refuse to let it.
I refuse to let you or society,
Or anyone else, to get to me...

I may be "abnormal" to you, you see,
But to me...
Its just... well...
me...

I fight for my life.
Have since I was born...
And will never stop.

'Till Im gone,
I hope to remain,
At least...
At the top part of the food chain.

To be recognized for who and what I am...
That would be a blessing...

For who and what I am...
Is a challenge.
Its a curse and a blessing...
All the same...

So please, if you see, and recognize,
The dream of who and what I'll be,
Take a minute...
Or just a second of your day...

Think.