Waning

 
inside myself I'm waning
my soul has retreated deep within
I can barely hear her...my voice
quietly uttering her frustration
a slow vibration touches my body
it is with great effore I reach out now

where I go when this happens I don't know
I lose myself somewhere
until there is nothing but silence

my voice stops talking and I am left alone in the void
without direction or purpose
I weep in my solemn sacred

I grieve my own loss
I am going where no one can touch
word by word my throat cut
until I can speak no more

it is a place I know well...the abyss
I know its depths and length
here I am alone

emptiness fills my time
as I cry to deaf ears
no one will hear me here

as a day at a time I disappear