Reminiscing

I've always loved to read
I picked it up to drown everything out
I let my mind wander to new lands
while they revelled in my silence
I've always longed to be a part of something
when I learnt that I was the odd one out
I planned what I would say
once they could finally see me
Now I fear to hold on to the hope
that my world is only temporary
that I'll be perceived
that I am real