yours to hold

 
it was cold day you cut me with goodbye
was I really ever yours, down in your heart?
so deep as to feed your soul

I nourish our love with my blue affections
cultivated beauty to amuse you
wrapped you with envy so others would admire

now sadness envelopes because I wonder
how easy you let me go
I was never truly yours

I touch your shadow and ache
for a place you filled deep within
I felt you pull away
and a part of me is retreating into the darkness
to a place you can no longer touch

you will regret me, down in your depths
when you reach and can no longer move me
my tears of regret have dried on my face
I count them as diamonds

proof of my feelings
wisdom to adorn my crown
jewels of faith to see me onward

I weep tears of hope
I know you seek my vulnerability

will you weep also when it is no longer yours to hold?