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What Were You Expecting
Morning darkness lays
its web of lamentation across
these legs, numb and cold,
aching to move.
Its become a procedure to come
back from these dreams: anxiety reaches
a pinnacle and I have to coax
myself into being.
Connecting to anything
or anyone is jarring. It sometimes feels
as though my insides
are being squeezed through a shredder.
I'm not entirely sure I've properly
learned how to love people.
Or maybe I love too much, and it's
loss I can't reckon with; so I cover myself
in a layer of razor-wire, enough
to keep me surrendered and lost
to the murky depths that my psyche
continues to live in.
Here there is no loss
no pain
no
no
no
nothing.
its web of lamentation across
these legs, numb and cold,
aching to move.
Its become a procedure to come
back from these dreams: anxiety reaches
a pinnacle and I have to coax
myself into being.
Connecting to anything
or anyone is jarring. It sometimes feels
as though my insides
are being squeezed through a shredder.
I'm not entirely sure I've properly
learned how to love people.
Or maybe I love too much, and it's
loss I can't reckon with; so I cover myself
in a layer of razor-wire, enough
to keep me surrendered and lost
to the murky depths that my psyche
continues to live in.
Here there is no loss
no pain
no
no
no
nothing.
Published 29th Jan 2023
Author's Note
For Everavalon's comp, "Me".
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
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29th Jan 2023 00:55am
Awesome. How many of us can relate to what you've written out for us. The symptoms are all here, for sure.
The resignation seems to be overwhelming as this write continued. We feel it too, through you.
Great write.
The resignation seems to be overwhelming as this write continued. We feel it too, through you.
Great write.
29th Jan 2023 1:31am
hello beautiful Eerie I can understand this deeply I can reach deep into the darkness and remember a time there was nothing just me and empty space I was only but it was peaceful... everything else seems to hurt of cost more emotional money than I want to invest... just to get ripped off in the end...
great write...
great write...
29th Jan 2023 3:36am
The beauty that shines through even the darkest of places is sometimes simply our will to go on, despite the dim view we are afforded. This resonated so deeply with me; I felt every word. This is what true art does - it reaches us and makes us feel less alone, even understood. Thank you for this.
29th Jan 2023 10:23am
Dear E,
I was expecting to be wrapped in soft down feathers with adoration and jewels strewn at me feet. What I got was none of the above and surrounding myself in razor wire was the best way for self preservation. Each and every word was so meaningful to me, but I expect you might already know that. The poetry dripping from that pen of yours is on fire with passion and it’s destiny is powerful and full of significance to us all. X
H🌷
I was expecting to be wrapped in soft down feathers with adoration and jewels strewn at me feet. What I got was none of the above and surrounding myself in razor wire was the best way for self preservation. Each and every word was so meaningful to me, but I expect you might already know that. The poetry dripping from that pen of yours is on fire with passion and it’s destiny is powerful and full of significance to us all. X
H🌷
29th Jan 2023 12:46pm
29th Jan 2023 7:11pm
Alright, I was all in by stanza 4, terrific build of the environment and then the poignant and resonant revelations of the close.
This aches me from a personal perspective of keeping others at a distance. 💖
This aches me from a personal perspective of keeping others at a distance. 💖
31st Jan 2023 4:34am
That second stanza is really a stream of the subconscious, giving light and very eloquent verse.
Good luck in the comp.
Good luck in the comp.
5th Feb 2023 11:43pm
