Fever Dream

I’m sick
It’s really bad
I’m writing this in a fever dream
I can see you laying here with me
But it’s you who’s sweaty
You’re so pale and burning up
Your eyes are rolling back behind their wet blankets
Only to return and search for me again
You’re probably having the craziest dream
You probably see me laying there
Across from you
Sweating
Squirming
Suffering
You wish I didn’t see you like this
I bet this hurts you
After all,
You so patiently taught me self care
So convincingly
then you were gone
So deliberate
Now open your eyes
Look at me
Listen carefully
This is important
You look really bad
I don’t care