So goddamn fucking hurt

Fuck me, right?
Fuck everything about me.
So fkn exhausted with all this.
This fkn mind fuck.
Brain fuck.
Heart fuck.
Far from an actual sexual fuck.
Never been good for a fkn thing.
2 failed marriages prove that.
Now i know for a fact I'll die alone.
I went from crying daily.
All from heartbreak that went on daily.
To fkn anger flowing through my mind.
Fkn shit. Hell isn't that far to find.
I'm disgusted with myself for allowing this love shit to happen and torture my fkn soul.
I want to burn that love shit to the fkn ground just let it all go.
I'll be more cautious next time.
Fk that. There isn't gonna be a next time.
That's a guaranteed bet.
Fkn obsessing over some woman who didn't want my ass no ways.
Shits fkd up for real.
I wouldn't do that fkn shit to anyone, their heart to steal.
Now i say thank you for hurting me.
Thank you for fkn turning my world upside down.
Thank you.
From me to you.
FUCK YOU.

Fuck that madness.
Fuck love and that sadness.
Fuck all of it.
Don't need your greasy slit.
I got hands. I can jack my dick.
Save money.
Save what's left of my sanity.
I never should've let you in my heart.
Big mistake on my part.
Should've known better.
Now from my tears my pillow is much wetter.
I will have to be much stronger when it comes to dealing with this love shit.
You deceived me oh so much, you did it.
Made me think you truly loved me.
You never loved me.
You fkn used me.
Fkn threw me in a ditch.
Like you do a bag of shit.
Or a used condom full of dick spit.
Guard my heart I must.
A woman.
A lady.
A ho.
A bitch.
I'll never trust.
You say that's an asshole move by me.
Well it's the females that did this, they made me.
They mentally fkd me.
Now i know it's true, nice guys finish dead fkn last.
Disagree if you want, this is what I've seen and dealt with from my past.
Now i know for true I'll live and die alone.
Then they can crush and burn my fkn bones.
I don't wanna ever fkn see you again.
Never ever
Never ever
Never ever fkn again.
I'll never be the one.
I'm fkn done.
You told me you'd always be mine and i yours.
Now it's 2 fkn weeks since I last heard from you.
I'm on all fours crying on this fkn floor.
I believed you.
I trusted you.
How could you?
How could you do this to me?
Are you happy with yourself?
Having me crying all fkn day and night.
This shit sux.
You told me time after time, you love me 1,000 times.
What the fuck happened to that shit?
You have me not wanting, not caring to continue on with this fkd life.
I fucking love you, dammit.
How can you sleep at night knowing you've fkd me up?
I can't fkn take this shit.
This pain i want to stop it.
How lord? How?
This is no laughing matter.
How could you destroy my entire world?