Submissions by jmerrick73
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Poetry is my outlet for expressing my depression, my anger, my love, my hate, my dark hellish life.
Give up
I've decided to just give up on love.
After 2 yrs of being divorced.
No sign of any woman showing interest
Just a bunch of ghosters and money hungry sack chasers.
No more
No more, never again.
This is where it's the end.
Hearts been shattered so much.
My heart only responds to i don't give a fuck.
My friends i don't want to hear of how much you're in love and how wonderful it is.
On love i give it a squirt of hot steam piss.
You bring your tales of true love happiness.
My response is going to be pure negativity, so get on with...
After 2 yrs of being divorced.
No sign of any woman showing interest
Just a bunch of ghosters and money hungry sack chasers.
No more
No more, never again.
This is where it's the end.
Hearts been shattered so much.
My heart only responds to i don't give a fuck.
My friends i don't want to hear of how much you're in love and how wonderful it is.
On love i give it a squirt of hot steam piss.
You bring your tales of true love happiness.
My response is going to be pure negativity, so get on with...
#sadness
#anger
#rejection
#heartbroken
#emptiness
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Will there ever be another Love for me?
A True Love for thee?
A light of my life?
A True Love that brings Empathy to me?
To truly care for me?
To bring everything Loving into life?
To also bring a fire within my loins?
Or is this all there is for me?
I reminisce on past loves.
To when i was much younger and care free in life.
Now that life is very close to it's end, I think a Love for me is non existing.
Time has gone by taking everything dear to my heart.
Family, Friends, True Loves.
There won't be a new chapter in my life.
The only chapter i forsee is the last...
A light of my life?
A True Love that brings Empathy to me?
To truly care for me?
To bring everything Loving into life?
To also bring a fire within my loins?
Or is this all there is for me?
I reminisce on past loves.
To when i was much younger and care free in life.
Now that life is very close to it's end, I think a Love for me is non existing.
Time has gone by taking everything dear to my heart.
Family, Friends, True Loves.
There won't be a new chapter in my life.
The only chapter i forsee is the last...
#happiness
#love
#relationships
#romantic
#FallingInLove
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The Game
It's been a torture a total mind fuck.
They come into my life then exit my life.
Who the fuck do these things think they are?
At one time 16 years ago they really showed their emotional side to me.
Now they ignore me and do only for their needs.
Fuck me right? Fuck Larry, he means nothing to no one.
That's what i get for falling for them. I don't want to even be seen with them if all they're gonna do is leave me lonely.
It could be family or friends that cause mental devastation.
This time around it's a friend that once showed me physical &...
They come into my life then exit my life.
Who the fuck do these things think they are?
At one time 16 years ago they really showed their emotional side to me.
Now they ignore me and do only for their needs.
Fuck me right? Fuck Larry, he means nothing to no one.
That's what i get for falling for them. I don't want to even be seen with them if all they're gonna do is leave me lonely.
It could be family or friends that cause mental devastation.
This time around it's a friend that once showed me physical &...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#disappointment
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My So called Sex life ?
Have i or haven't i slept with many women throughout my life?
Let us take a look and you can be the judge of this.
1991 (Loss of my virginity at age 17)
Char 1994
Crystal 1995
Deb 1996 - 2006
Heather L. 2004-2006
Che 2006 - 2007
Tracy 2007 - 2008
Ann 2008
Jen 2008 - 2021
Ashley 2022 - 2023
Michelle 2022 - 2023
Yes, i can still count on 2 hands of how many sexual partners i've had in my so called Sex life!!!
Let us take a look and you can be the judge of this.
1991 (Loss of my virginity at age 17)
Char 1994
Crystal 1995
Deb 1996 - 2006
Heather L. 2004-2006
Che 2006 - 2007
Tracy 2007 - 2008
Ann 2008
Jen 2008 - 2021
Ashley 2022 - 2023
Michelle 2022 - 2023
Yes, i can still count on 2 hands of how many sexual partners i've had in my so called Sex life!!!
#lust
#sex
#lover
#sensual
#passion
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Out of sight, Out of mind
You think people forget about you now.
Just wait till after you're dead.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND.
That's the way it's always been.
Family and friends will forget all about your ass as well.
You think "Oh not my family and friends."
Yes. Your family and friends.
It's inevitable.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND.
From the time the funerals over and grave is covered with dirt.
The headstone is placed, the flowers are placed.
Briefly there is a time of pain and hurt.
Then the process of starting your job...
Just wait till after you're dead.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND.
That's the way it's always been.
Family and friends will forget all about your ass as well.
You think "Oh not my family and friends."
Yes. Your family and friends.
It's inevitable.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND.
From the time the funerals over and grave is covered with dirt.
The headstone is placed, the flowers are placed.
Briefly there is a time of pain and hurt.
Then the process of starting your job...
#dark
#lies
#shadows
#silence
#TruthOfLife
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Sinful addiction
#lust
#sex
#porn
#dirty
#orgasm
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NO MORE
Fucking off my hard earned money.
either on lottery or some sack chasin' groupie.
I admit it's my sin i get caught up in.
Lovin'money and pussy,that's what i'm dreamin.
Allowing myself to end up sad & depressed.
When my money is low, i get to feeling stressed
I've come to realize i'll never have a true.
All that hurt & pain just isn't worth it,what i'm speaking on ain't nothing new.
Heartbreak and madness.
Fuck the bullshit fuck the fucking stress.
Got to get my mind straight before it's too late
And on that note i'm working on a...
either on lottery or some sack chasin' groupie.
I admit it's my sin i get caught up in.
Lovin'money and pussy,that's what i'm dreamin.
Allowing myself to end up sad & depressed.
When my money is low, i get to feeling stressed
I've come to realize i'll never have a true.
All that hurt & pain just isn't worth it,what i'm speaking on ain't nothing new.
Heartbreak and madness.
Fuck the bullshit fuck the fucking stress.
Got to get my mind straight before it's too late
And on that note i'm working on a...
#porn
#fate
#money
#passion
#ThrillSeeking
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Asmodeus
Never shall i defeat this demon.
This demon that has me 24/7 fiendin.
The demon Asmodeus.
Has become much more aggressive towards my physical body.
Skin tearing.
Flesh burning.
Like I've said before, the sin won't end until life ends.
Straight up facts i speak about
As difficult as it may be to comprehend.
As soon as you are born into this damned hellish world, sin is running through your veins.
Asmodeus aka demon of lust.
Asmodeus isn't of love, he only seeks to make you bust nuts.
Either on the ground, down the drain, in a...
This demon that has me 24/7 fiendin.
The demon Asmodeus.
Has become much more aggressive towards my physical body.
Skin tearing.
Flesh burning.
Like I've said before, the sin won't end until life ends.
Straight up facts i speak about
As difficult as it may be to comprehend.
As soon as you are born into this damned hellish world, sin is running through your veins.
Asmodeus aka demon of lust.
Asmodeus isn't of love, he only seeks to make you bust nuts.
Either on the ground, down the drain, in a...
#abuse
#LifeStruggles
#suffering
#temptation
#hurt
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The Seen destroying forces
There are not just unseen forces set out to destroy your life.
The seen forces are more damaging to your life and everything in it.
I usually deal with the unseen forces.
Yesterday was my first conflict with the seen, in a very long time.
It made itself known months before the initial attack.
The attack came within a few minutes.
It took place at my place of employment.
It wasn't just one force.
It was two.
At the time it began, it was like a hornets nest was floating around the room.
Only this hornets nest was moving towards me and to...
The seen forces are more damaging to your life and everything in it.
I usually deal with the unseen forces.
Yesterday was my first conflict with the seen, in a very long time.
It made itself known months before the initial attack.
The attack came within a few minutes.
It took place at my place of employment.
It wasn't just one force.
It was two.
At the time it began, it was like a hornets nest was floating around the room.
Only this hornets nest was moving towards me and to...
#hate
#dark
#evil
#TruthOfLife
#suffering
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BROKEN
In this cold dark world.
All i have ever seen is death and heartbreak.
Shit that i wish i never wanted to see.
But that's life.
That's all there is.
Death and fucking heartbreak.
Some people go through life without a care in this world.
I wish those same people could see what all my eye's have seen.
The cold lifeless shells of what were once a living loving person.
The saying is all so very true.
If you ever have the chance to love someone, there will be grief.
Faithful family and friends that are no longer of this world.
The...
All i have ever seen is death and heartbreak.
Shit that i wish i never wanted to see.
But that's life.
That's all there is.
Death and fucking heartbreak.
Some people go through life without a care in this world.
I wish those same people could see what all my eye's have seen.
The cold lifeless shells of what were once a living loving person.
The saying is all so very true.
If you ever have the chance to love someone, there will be grief.
Faithful family and friends that are no longer of this world.
The...
#sadness
#grief
#loneliness #emptiness
#loneliness #emptiness
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All i want
All i want for this new year is God's forgiveness and his unconditional Love.
#God
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MY PUNISHMENT???????
#sadness
#sex
#erotic #nonfiction
#erotic #nonfiction
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