Life Is A Lie

I apply makeup on my face,but i still look like a disgrace.
I really tried to impress,but I couldn't. At first it was adorable.
 I was eating candy. Now I have bloody cavities.

Life was a brownie made of sugar, but now it's rotten with poison.
The gates of my heart closed. I watched myself burn.
I was a sailor in a sea of hope. Now it's getting cold.

 They asked me questions a lot,but all I could say is ""not"".
 I was really fit, now I'm getting big. Please, drain the calories of trauma.
 I don''t want to start drama. You noticed my mistakes,

not my achievements. I should be proud, but I'm not.
 I'm quiet, so I rot. Oh,people,set me free.
But you don't even believe me. So I let it be.