A Shadow of Doubt

I try to be strong
To hold onto my belief
That soon I will be free
From all of this grief

Solid and true
Is my resolve and my will
But that unknowing dark force
Continues to follow me still

I know it’s a manifestation
I’ve created and given life
As it cuts through my defenses
Like the sharp blade of a knife

It threatens to do harm
To all I have built
By delivering that blade
All the way to the hilt

But I know in my heart
My skin is too thick
And my nerves are aware
My reactions to quick

So cautiously I move
Aware of its presence and threat
Creating this darkness
I will always regret

In my mind I try forgetting
Try shutting it out
But I guess there is no escaping
My shadow of doubt