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Self-Destruct
The belt's to my neck,
and I'm asking myself why
"I don't have the guts to end me."
I made too many damn mistakes,
Is living with this regret
enough for punishment's sake?
Just wanna do the right thing,
but I guess all I am is fucked.
Is it better just to self-destruct?
and I'm asking myself why
"I don't have the guts to end me."
I made too many damn mistakes,
Is living with this regret
enough for punishment's sake?
Just wanna do the right thing,
but I guess all I am is fucked.
Is it better just to self-destruct?
Published 15th Jul 2021
Author's Note
No stealing as always. This was about my recurring feelings of unworthiness and also alluding to an "attempt" I had two months ago. But do not worry about me. I'm figuring out how to stop feeling so helpless.
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15th Jul 2021 6:44am
Sorry to hear you're feeling poorly.
I was intrigued when you said it was two months ago, which would be April-May.
I know so many people who love spring.
And then everyone talks about Seasonal Affect Disorder, and always assume it's in winter.
I've never understood this--
I agree with TS Eliot, April is the cruelest month, and summer can be pretty rough on someone's well-being.
Hang in there!
I was intrigued when you said it was two months ago, which would be April-May.
I know so many people who love spring.
And then everyone talks about Seasonal Affect Disorder, and always assume it's in winter.
I've never understood this--
I agree with TS Eliot, April is the cruelest month, and summer can be pretty rough on someone's well-being.
Hang in there!
Princess Alia,
You are not unworthy, your words here on DUP are very worthy. That is great you are working it out. Don't hesitate to ask a professional or confidant for help if needed. The world needs more Princesses not less, and we need artists too (your books and music). The arts contribute to our (society) happiness and well-being!
Hug from Leo. Hang in there, you are a great young woman.
You are not unworthy, your words here on DUP are very worthy. That is great you are working it out. Don't hesitate to ask a professional or confidant for help if needed. The world needs more Princesses not less, and we need artists too (your books and music). The arts contribute to our (society) happiness and well-being!
Hug from Leo. Hang in there, you are a great young woman.
