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14 months
It was supposed to be ok by now.
I was even congratulating myself
on staying out of the abyss
despite crushing aloneness
overwhelming loss all around me
changes in the very fabric of life
I rode through it all
on a wave of activity and creativity
maintaining sanity
Until today.
Today, when I noticed
how his very breath exuded judgement
which I will always deserve
and never escape,
and the weariness of resignation set in.
Today, when I noticed
every interaction was a meeting,
friendship and banter a thing of the past,
and the desire to communicate vanished.
Today, I am done.
That wave has crashed.
It was supposed to be ok by now.
I was even congratulating myself
on staying out of the abyss
despite crushing aloneness
overwhelming loss all around me
changes in the very fabric of life
I rode through it all
on a wave of activity and creativity
maintaining sanity
Until today.
Today, when I noticed
how his very breath exuded judgement
which I will always deserve
and never escape,
and the weariness of resignation set in.
Today, when I noticed
every interaction was a meeting,
friendship and banter a thing of the past,
and the desire to communicate vanished.
Today, I am done.
That wave has crashed.
It was supposed to be ok by now.
Published 17th May 2021
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So tired...
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17th May 2021 4:56am
17th May 2021 5:01am
Dear K,
It’s wearing out all of us. I know it feels so lonely and isolating. But the bastards won’t take us down.
I absolutely feel this. Some days it’s crushing but I’ve found literally flipping the bird to every politician and news outlet has shown some relief. Literally followed by a “F*ck you” screamed into the wind has released a bit of surface frustration. Hang in there my friend. I have a lovely bottle of red with our names all over it when this bullshit is done and it’s closer than we know. Excellent write and thank you for saying what we’re all tolerating in such a fantastic poetic form! H🌷
It’s wearing out all of us. I know it feels so lonely and isolating. But the bastards won’t take us down.
I absolutely feel this. Some days it’s crushing but I’ve found literally flipping the bird to every politician and news outlet has shown some relief. Literally followed by a “F*ck you” screamed into the wind has released a bit of surface frustration. Hang in there my friend. I have a lovely bottle of red with our names all over it when this bullshit is done and it’s closer than we know. Excellent write and thank you for saying what we’re all tolerating in such a fantastic poetic form! H🌷
17th May 2021 1:07pm
17th May 2021 1:11pm
You have such strength ... it comes thru in your writing ... hang in there ...
18th May 2021 7:45am
Yeah Neh, I can feel you as you come across..
The heavy burden is overwhelming...
The thing about decisions is the not knowing if they're are wrong or right and that remaining the case never makes things easy
The heavy burden is overwhelming...
The thing about decisions is the not knowing if they're are wrong or right and that remaining the case never makes things easy
