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paper house in the rain
You're an asshole
and I lie here in the aftermath
of my failed escape
wondering why I came back
You are not the person
I fell in love with
you're an addiction
masquerading as a person
I can't talk to you
in these lost moments
where we can't understand each other
my emotions running too hot and hard
under my skin
your addictions rationalising
every bad decision
like that makes them justified
I want you to want me
as much as I want you
... as much as I wanted you
I want what we had
and maybe that's why I stay
when I dream of leaving
I remember you the way you were
before you became a nightmare
When I look at you
I can still see the angel in your eyes
You used to make me feel safe
But used to isn't a reason
to come home anymore
You're an asshole
I don't know why I came back
© Indie Adams 2021
and I lie here in the aftermath
of my failed escape
wondering why I came back
You are not the person
I fell in love with
you're an addiction
masquerading as a person
I can't talk to you
in these lost moments
where we can't understand each other
my emotions running too hot and hard
under my skin
your addictions rationalising
every bad decision
like that makes them justified
I want you to want me
as much as I want you
... as much as I wanted you
I want what we had
and maybe that's why I stay
when I dream of leaving
I remember you the way you were
before you became a nightmare
When I look at you
I can still see the angel in your eyes
You used to make me feel safe
But used to isn't a reason
to come home anymore
You're an asshole
I don't know why I came back
© Indie Adams 2021
Published 15th Feb 2021
| Edited 24th May 2022
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15th Feb 2021 4:31pm
Why are you afraid of severing the ties so you can get on with your life ?! The way you come and go, makes you the enabler of his bad behaviour !
I hope you choose you, next time...👑
I hope you choose you, next time...👑
15th Feb 2021 5:56pm
I can understand that there's way more nuance and complications involved in every type of partnership. Things no stranger knows.
That sometimes, it might feel impossible because of a certain type of hope that still desperately remains. Or other personal circumstances that are seemingly issues, which compound a bad situation. I relate and this write resonates deeply. I have experience watching something similar from the very close sidelines. As well as being in the middle of it, myself... I thought no one could ever understand.. They can though and eventually you will better understand, too. A gentle reminder that YOU aren't the asshole and YOU and anyone that's come from you, are what is important. Always... ALWAYS. I'm sending all the best vibes to allow for clarity, peace and hope.... you're never alone....
You are seen and heard.
Much love,
xo
-B
That sometimes, it might feel impossible because of a certain type of hope that still desperately remains. Or other personal circumstances that are seemingly issues, which compound a bad situation. I relate and this write resonates deeply. I have experience watching something similar from the very close sidelines. As well as being in the middle of it, myself... I thought no one could ever understand.. They can though and eventually you will better understand, too. A gentle reminder that YOU aren't the asshole and YOU and anyone that's come from you, are what is important. Always... ALWAYS. I'm sending all the best vibes to allow for clarity, peace and hope.... you're never alone....
You are seen and heard.
Much love,
xo
-B
