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maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so handsome.
(i.)
July 2019
it's searing and bone protruding
eyes blinded, bloody
shards of glass and encroaching fear
red, blue, and yellowish-white lights blur
a language I can't quite understand
or an accent maybe
cold, so cold - like Ohio, when I was small
Am I frozen?
Maybe I was dreaming of long ago...?
Then I tried to move
my legs work, my fingers move
my arms and head
wait, wait. .... not my head
why can't I move my....
My FACE
only partly, I try to talk
shock was setting in, I could tell
I've experienced it one other time...
It's like when you close your eyes
but can still see the sunlight behind them
darkness starts to seal out reality
I need to calm down..be calm and breathe
I could see a bit of movement at my right—
the look of abject horror
on a complete strangers face
or Jensen Ackles' face ?
what's Dean doing here?
even steeped
in a new look of determined terror
just. so. hot.
like an archangel
and there was that screaming again
so LOUDLY!
Oh, just be quiet,
we're all trying to sleep here...
His voice was so annoying and nonstop
I wanted to yell
Shut. The. Fuck. Up.
I tried to scream "Just ANSWER HIM!!!"
to get it to stop
when I focused again,
from my darkened side of "internal sunshine"
there it was again
that annoying voice, again.. and again
now it seemed, it was attached
to Jensen/Dean's face
the annoying screaming guy, (Dean)
he was talking to me
me?
why me?
I'm just comfortably resting and waiting
for the sun to warm me
So tired, so so very tired
I'm tired beyond measure
I don't think I've ever been more tired in my life
I'll just close my eyes for a bit...
July 2019
it's searing and bone protruding
eyes blinded, bloody
shards of glass and encroaching fear
red, blue, and yellowish-white lights blur
a language I can't quite understand
or an accent maybe
cold, so cold - like Ohio, when I was small
Am I frozen?
Maybe I was dreaming of long ago...?
Then I tried to move
my legs work, my fingers move
my arms and head
wait, wait. .... not my head
why can't I move my....
My FACE
only partly, I try to talk
shock was setting in, I could tell
I've experienced it one other time...
It's like when you close your eyes
but can still see the sunlight behind them
darkness starts to seal out reality
I need to calm down..be calm and breathe
I could see a bit of movement at my right—
the look of abject horror
on a complete strangers face
or Jensen Ackles' face ?
what's Dean doing here?
even steeped
in a new look of determined terror
just. so. hot.
like an archangel
and there was that screaming again
so LOUDLY!
Oh, just be quiet,
we're all trying to sleep here...
His voice was so annoying and nonstop
I wanted to yell
Shut. The. Fuck. Up.
I tried to scream "Just ANSWER HIM!!!"
to get it to stop
when I focused again,
from my darkened side of "internal sunshine"
there it was again
that annoying voice, again.. and again
now it seemed, it was attached
to Jensen/Dean's face
the annoying screaming guy, (Dean)
he was talking to me
me?
why me?
I'm just comfortably resting and waiting
for the sun to warm me
So tired, so so very tired
I'm tired beyond measure
I don't think I've ever been more tired in my life
I'll just close my eyes for a bit...
Written by
Bluevelvete
Published 10th Feb 2021
| Edited 18th Mar 2023
Author's Note
real murky memories from a true story of a car accident that had me go through the windshield, when an air bag didn't fully deploy.....
tough stuff to write, I tend to lighten it a bit
©Blu2021
tough stuff to write, I tend to lighten it a bit
©Blu2021
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Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
10th Feb 2021 9:09am
Wow, such a great write. I live in Ohio so I appreciate the shout out hehe. Awesome ink 😁
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
DC,
I knew I liked you... ;)... I was born in Ohio and lived there until I was 11. I still visit from time to time.... I miss it in the winter and have wonderful memories of sledding! 🌨 Ty for reading and I'm appreciative of the list add and all your kindness... 🙏
🌹
xo
I knew I liked you... ;)... I was born in Ohio and lived there until I was 11. I still visit from time to time.... I miss it in the winter and have wonderful memories of sledding! 🌨 Ty for reading and I'm appreciative of the list add and all your kindness... 🙏
🌹
xo
Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
10th Feb 2021 9:40am
I been around. I moved up here when I was 19 I believe. Went from Texas heat to Ohio cold haha. Kind of in a boring red area, but not much crime so I guess I can deal with boring.
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
10th Feb 2021 9:43am
Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
10th Feb 2021 9:45am
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
10th Feb 2021 9:11am
Damn ... (your words make me say that a lot) ... Compelling ... Bless and love ...
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
10th Feb 2021 9:35am
You're a lovely sight on my page this morning, Ty for reading, FeNyX
🙏 🌹 💜
xo
🙏 🌹 💜
xo
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
10th Feb 2021 9:25am
Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
10th Feb 2021 9:26am
lol... Only Dean!!!
he's my favorite anyway...
💜
Ty for reading, Grace
🌹
xo
he's my favorite anyway...
💜
Ty for reading, Grace
🌹
xo
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
10th Feb 2021 9:52am
You have an angel by your side, because you are here and strong smart beautiful woman. Keep on writing.
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
10th Feb 2021 11:00am
Ty for reading Francisco... I really do, I think...
I appreciate your comments
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I appreciate your comments
🌹
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
10th Feb 2021 12:32pm
My God Blue
I'm so glad you made it how frightening that must of been
Thank you Angel from me
Love and light
Ron xx
I'm so glad you made it how frightening that must of been
Thank you Angel from me
Love and light
Ron xx
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Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
BV this write is truly a harrowing and compelling story.
You have an uncanny gift of giving your readers the true experience of your realities through your very descriptive writing style.
There are many correlations to your fascinating story to my very own past tragic scars.
Your emotional and vivid writing ignites the telling my very own story of survivals crashing through my mind.
Thank you for sharing your incredible tragic events of this accident with the cleverness and captivating writing as only you can Susan.
Just another small glimpse into a reality in your life through verse,
once again giving us a peek into the soul and mind of a true writer and inspiring poet.....Incredible!
You have an uncanny gift of giving your readers the true experience of your realities through your very descriptive writing style.
There are many correlations to your fascinating story to my very own past tragic scars.
Your emotional and vivid writing ignites the telling my very own story of survivals crashing through my mind.
Thank you for sharing your incredible tragic events of this accident with the cleverness and captivating writing as only you can Susan.
Just another small glimpse into a reality in your life through verse,
once again giving us a peek into the soul and mind of a true writer and inspiring poet.....Incredible!
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
10th Feb 2021 11:35pm
Your words are healing and extremely needed today. I am on my second post surgical day, healing from my (supposed) last surgery. My 5th in close to two years. It's always the second day that's most painful and I saved the whopping 5 pain pills they prescribed, all for today... lol. I've only taken one, and have continued to chase the pain away with 800 mg ibuprofen... but I'm counting down the hours until I can take another!! So,needless to say I'm basking in the distraction (not that you're JUST a distraction, you're not!!! heh heh) of your kinship. I'm so sorry for you that you can relate to this experience, Ron. I am hoping for you that your scars are healed, both inside and out. You really instilled in me a beautiful sense of peace and joy, that little ol me could have any affect on another, like you describe, well is truly amazing .... I'm so appreciative for you and all your wonderful support Ty Ty Ty.
Much love and respect,
🌹
xo
Much love and respect,
🌹
xo
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
Dearest Blue, your vivid, visceral description of this horrific event brings tears to my eyes. In my gut I can feel your confusion, dread, and desperate attempt to remain calm. We are certainly blessed to have you still here with us. You are one courageous goddess bunny😍 Thank you for sharing this truly touching account 🐻💋🐻💋🐻
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
11th Feb 2021 1:57am
My lovely BB,
Your thoughtfulness warms me to my core.
I thank you for reading this tough write. I don't know why I finally let it go, I think it's the pain meds... heh heh heh...
Your words are a just he bit of kindness I needed to snuggle with.. Ty, my lovely friend
Much love,
🌹
xo
🐇💜🐇
Your thoughtfulness warms me to my core.
I thank you for reading this tough write. I don't know why I finally let it go, I think it's the pain meds... heh heh heh...
Your words are a just he bit of kindness I needed to snuggle with.. Ty, my lovely friend
Much love,
🌹
xo
🐇💜🐇
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
11th Feb 2021 00:03am
Oh, my Princess such a moving and inspiring story, and you made it through; so glad you did, you have and will continue to make this old dark world a brighter place. Keep smiling because the "best is yet to be." Hugs and kisses, peace and love, oral
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
11th Feb 2021 1:58am
Ty, Oral... your sentiments mean a lot
If anyone can understand the seriousness here, it's you. I appreciate you reading and understanding where I am coming from.
Much love,
🌹
xo
If anyone can understand the seriousness here, it's you. I appreciate you reading and understanding where I am coming from.
Much love,
🌹
xo
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
12th Feb 2021 00:32am
🥇
I'll wear my wM medal with pride!! You're incredibly sweet and I really appreciate your thoughtful comments, Wilber, Ty very much
for the RL add and your visits that always make my day!!
Much love and respect
from across the pond ;)
🇺🇸 💙 🇬🇧
🌹
xo
B
I'll wear my wM medal with pride!! You're incredibly sweet and I really appreciate your thoughtful comments, Wilber, Ty very much
for the RL add and your visits that always make my day!!
Much love and respect
from across the pond ;)
🇺🇸 💙 🇬🇧
🌹
xo
B
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
12th Feb 2021 6:06pm
A sense of urgency is difficult to capture in line and stanza but you succeed in this suspenseful and vividly full dimensioned writing. It is captivating, with that necessary feel of vulnerable candor that breathes life into art. 💖💖
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
I really struggled to post this and went back and forth with it for a while. I'm still not sure that in my mind's eye I got it completely correct nor am I sure that I even wanted to share this.. I still feel that, even now. Weird to admit but maybe somethings should feel uncomfortable or bring doubts, because that's reality. It's not all always a well written, wrapped up in a bow, on your hallmark card kinda wham bam thank you ma'am poetry (not that I think that of myself, just a general statement) Maybe the uncertainty is supposed to just be.... so I said fuck it, and posted it. Just my thought process ;) I thank you for reading and your insights, Daniel. The list add is generous and very thoughtful as well. You put things into perspective and that's a lovely characteristic...
ty again.
💜
xoxo
B
ty again.
💜
xoxo
B
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
16th Feb 2021 4:23am
It's surreal, the way you start to come out of that haze and start describing what you're seeing and feeling. Sounds scary.
I'm staying tuned.
I'm staying tuned.
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Re: Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are alway
16th Mar 2021 00:14am
Ty for reading this personal piece Wally... yeah, I remember feeling fear but kinda from a distance... it was weird. I'm so appreciative of your input and hopefully I'll get around to writing that last portion..
I appreciate you
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I appreciate you
🌹
Re. maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so
19th May 2022 1:08am
I like your writing style. I read this poem and feel.. Winter. I'm from MI, and can absolutely appreciate your referencing.
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