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maybe it's an accidental accent, shock, or why EMT's are always so handsome.

(i.)  
July 2019            
               
                
it's searing and bone protruding                      
eyes blinded, bloody                        
shards of glass and encroaching fear      
red, blue, and yellowish-white lights blur      
a language I can't quite understand      
or an accent maybe      
cold, so cold - like Ohio, when I was small      
Am I frozen?      
Maybe I was dreaming of long ago...?      
Then I tried to move      
my legs work, my fingers move      
my arms and head      
wait, wait. .... not my head      
why can't I move my....                      
My FACE                      
only partly, I try to talk                      
shock was setting in, I could tell                        
I've experienced it one other time...  
It's like when you close your eyes                        
but can still see the sunlight behind them        
darkness starts to seal out reality                      
I need to calm down..be calm and breathe    
I could see a bit of movement at my right—    
the look of abject horror                      
on a complete strangers face                      
or Jensen Ackles' face ?                    
what's Dean doing here?                    
even steeped    
in a new look of determined terror    
just. so. hot.                
like an archangel                
and there was that screaming again                
so LOUDLY!                      
Oh, just be quiet,                  
we're all trying to sleep here
...                      
His voice was so annoying and nonstop      
I wanted to yell                    
Shut. The. Fuck. Up.                        
I tried to scream "Just ANSWER HIM!!!"  
to get it to stop                
when I focused again,                        
from my darkened side of "internal sunshine"  
there it was again                
that annoying voice, again.. and again        
now it seemed, it was attached                  
to Jensen/Dean's face                    
the annoying screaming guy, (Dean)                  
he was talking to me                        
me?                        
why me
?                        
I'm just comfortably resting and waiting    
for the sun to warm me                        
So tired, so so very tired        
I'm tired beyond measure                  
I don't think I've ever been more tired in my life                  
                   
I'll just close my eyes for a bit...
               
                 
                 
                 




                 
Written by Bluevelvete
Published | Edited 18th Mar 2023
Author's Note
real murky memories from a true story of a car accident that had me go through the windshield, when an air bag didn't fully deploy.....
tough stuff to write, I tend to lighten it a bit
©Blu2021
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