Steps Forward (Without You)

It is hard imaging you not being here
Right now, but for both of us I have to
Walk towards a better tomorrow, one
Foot in front of the other like you have
 
Always taught me. You always steer  
Me, not in the direction where you
Were laid to rest, but where the sun
Still shines the brightest. Your valve
 
And battery decided to give up, but
I will keep living. I will keep thriving if
It means I can still remember you and
Your smiles. I never knew it was love  
 
Until I saw your eyes and in this rut
You held me as the edges of the cliff  
Became sharper. As we held hands
That night I knew it was the dove  
 
Who delivered its message. “Keep
Moving forward darling. I know that
You are tired and you do not want  
To move on without me, but I am still
 
Here in the breath you inhale deeply
Into your lungs. I am still in the flat
Curve of your laughter. Ghosts haunt
You, but I still keep you safe. The thrill
 
And yell escaping your mouth shows  
That I am alongside you on this roller  
Coaster ride. Do not lose those west
Coast vibes I fell in love with when we
 
First met or easy smiles as time slows  
Down for our magical kiss. The solar
Eclipse got nothing on the stars winking
At us night after night. We were sinking  
 
Our feet into the soft earth, getting lost
In the steady heartbeat of the world.”
We were programmed, but at what cost?
To feel nothing, but I felt it as you curled  
 
Up against my chest looking at me like
I had all the answers and the cure. I did
Not know that it was your last strike  
Of the game. Life came to a quick skid
 
And halt after your last breath, but I just
Knew that to honor your memory I had
To keep pushing on. You laid the trust
And happiness in me so I am not sad.