I was never the child with daffodils in her hair

I was never the child with daffodils in her hair
I never had the chance to play like that
to go to the park or anywhere
to have friends
laugh and share

I dreamed of oceans and stars
things that were deep
places I could get lost
tall grass and a cool breeze
I dreamed of these
I could never have dreamed 
of the simple things
I could never have hoped 
to have a true friend

I chased bees
craving their sting
and jellyfish in the oceans
all those pretty hurtful things

I was never the child
who wore sunshine on her face
but I found my escape 
my silent reprieve from pain
imagining hurt away 

replaced
by oceans and stars
things that were deep
places I could get lost
to dream