Amidst Grief & smoke signals

my face is still hot and wet and misty --  

damn me for being so emotional.......!!

grateful for You
our Love
our understanding and Sentience

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I'm a most emotionally charged person. Believe me, i know not where my sadness, even happiness in tears stems. I mentioned to my bf that i think  some sad dust particles loped onto me during my arrival journey. Sad from s child. My mother was carrying me when i her first born child, my sister, died of leukemia. I sometimes think some if it stemed from that painful event in her life.

Just wanted to share that with you. If i could i would wave my fairy tale wand and make it all away.  

am ever appreciative of reads and shares
thank You

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Do we haz a collaboration of sorts going on here according to your notes?

I feel like I am in an ancient place like Stonehenge where fire and smoke are being used in communication with another far away monument.

we do  
we  CAN  
always if we remain open to the pathways,  
the doorways  
and if we are doing our part and near or amidst the pathway inches............  
 
no collab, though
i just wanted to spill something nice for her (& in a small way it eases my empath ache, as well)

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not for me....
but she would -- IS worth it

and if she is not there waiting for me when i shed this mortal form,
She knows i am on the hunt............

in this dispensation
i am still jailed and can only try to heal others who are in the cell and try to wrest their souls from this ominous weight called, grief.

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Two beautiful souls

are

when they are

when we become.....

............Yes.......

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Tallen I agree with Johnny this is a beautiful spill with traces of ancient knowledge.  Communication is a tricky thing; but, good poetry is eternal in meaning while varying in interpretation by each individual reader.  

I could not be more happy for you to have found that soul who connects through love and loss. xo

communication
kindness
empathy
love

all eternal if given the freedom to be

thank You for the thoughtful comments
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Very finely said   :))

e1 hold many a weight when trying to deal with a close friend's loss and each of us deal with this and deal with closely from personal experiences.    There will never be an answer only a resolution that humans love and treat humans as humans............after this, another spill...........

it's all beautiful, working as stand-alone pieces or all running one into the other. for me, though, my absolute favourite part is the first one. it captures something ineffable


small confusion in this line:
of how much I didn’t say when should i

should that be 'when i should'
?

this is all me -- my spit, spilled
and i thank You for the read
and comments

and Your confusion
i caught that obtuse line
and almost changed it
but decided on the uncomfortable layout and read

it could be the way it should be but it ain't

; )

"of how much I didn’t say when should i
have said more in Your presence"
^^^
unsure if this is a booboo or intended
buuuuuuuuut
i love that line how it's both tentative question & declaration depending on one's pov.
this is beautiful & ancient

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=DD65K4VR6Lw
💖

The line in Question is laid down as i intended
(You and butters got me questioning myself and i used the app, Grammar Lookup, and there is nothing wrong with the line other than i lowercase pronouns referring to myself)

Delighted that You see how my intention has cause the line to be both a Q and or an A

am very appreciative of Your wonderful comments and the song link -- felt calming and regal

thank You, Beautiful

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Beautifully written I enjoyed it. Feeling is a hard thing to explain. We all find what we truly want differently. You were able to tell a story in not only a narrative way but an emotional way. You pulled us in and made us think about our own lives. This was well done.

OMG -- Your comments cause me to F*ckn cry!!

i only wanted to share the FEEL, i have, as an empath for my Friend....

am happy my feel has been understood............

appreciate You and Your kind shares

I am an empath myself. Don't worry about it. It is a gift not a curse. We just have to find a way to use it.

Nice poeting dear Tallen ...

thank You
appreciate the read

Wonderful writing, Tallen... so emotional and expressive. Wow!

one of my claims to backdropped fame --
i've always been an emotional writer (person)

thank You for the read and kind comments

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Great read! I find your use of capitalization among your personal pronouns and adjectives interesting. When referring to this soul that is the object of your affection, you capitalize, causing an almost Divine perception. However, when referring to yourself with this other soul, you lowercase, almost making it seem as together you are both human. Just an observation!

Oooooooooooo!!!
a Refreshing view ..........the other sharers KNOW or know of HowlingWhelms' ink and history and You do not and this makes Your response and comments ever more interesting and wonderful !!

For more than several decades i've written with pronouns for me as lowercase and pronouns for others, uppercase.  A cloak way of Honoring others and bowing.  

Much of my ink and beliefs stem from the other 50% of me -- my Okinawan red.  I dream in samurai and senpai and even Kabuki !!

and i have an affinity for Gardening which i blame on my Okinawan roots.

i am super spiritual but having renounced my Christian upbringing i have all but alienated myself from what family i have left.

I am not strong enough to travel on but my (blood) Sister, is my greatest strength and confidant and well, it really doesn't matter if she's Christian and me zen Buddhist..........

anyways............sorry to bend Yours and everyone's ear

i just want to say
i appreciate Your full comment and praises

Aaww.. Tallen!

you know my eyes will be puffy by
sunrise,

..that special place in my heart, you always earn your keep

let me soothe my retinas to read again

Thank you my darling ..

You deserve so much more
but this is all i have to offer. . .

(if only i could kiss Your puffiness away)

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I feel i relate with the fact so much poetry stayed silent in me and now trying catch up to it. Lol

But its never too late to write and keep writing as this is a beautiful piece 🤗❤

i believe many of us have Poetry that is welled up within us.  Most of the time it's in the form of strong emotion.

My strong emotion here is grief and love.
i lost my Fiancee in 1976
and the Poetess i spilled this for lost hers, as well, only not as many years ago.  We have connected with this.

thank You for the kind comments, praise
and
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Awww you welcome and i can understand that, poetry is just important to spill no matter what it is as it is important in a very message voice to help them when no one in person can for them.