Submissions by elsiesan
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
"A poem's Signature is the unique ability of the author to strike fire." elsiesan
ONCE lovers...
Do you think,
We could have a visit soon?
I hate to even ask,
Or feel like I am begging
It is such a strain.
Once lovers, sadness
Now permeates my being,
From my hair down to my knees
A knife to the heart
Of where we were,
And, where we are now.
How did it happen?
Not even a friend, am I.
All the love,
All the spoken and written words
Are now an all-consuming ache
In the middle of my chest.
I thought for sure, this time was it.
Our bodies, our minds, and our spirits
Took...
We could have a visit soon?
I hate to even ask,
Or feel like I am begging
It is such a strain.
Once lovers, sadness
Now permeates my being,
From my hair down to my knees
A knife to the heart
Of where we were,
And, where we are now.
How did it happen?
Not even a friend, am I.
All the love,
All the spoken and written words
Are now an all-consuming ache
In the middle of my chest.
I thought for sure, this time was it.
Our bodies, our minds, and our spirits
Took...
#sadness
#love
#heartbroken
#sensual
#passion
316 reads
12 Comments
Dwindling dreams
On the wings of time
When dwindling dreams
In the twilight
Of time and years,
When reflections in the mirror
Tell the true story,
I oft feel a huge failure
Seeking that which can never be
Not wanting to face the reality
Of life, of who I am
Of what could have been
Of what can never be.
When dwindling dreams
In the twilight
Of time and years,
When reflections in the mirror
Tell the true story,
I oft feel a huge failure
Seeking that which can never be
Not wanting to face the reality
Of life, of who I am
Of what could have been
Of what can never be.
#sadness
#regret
#romantic
#dreams
#disappointment
251 reads
11 Comments
Living Alone In a Relationship
Living alone in a relationship
Not something I envisioned
You living there, me here
Is great sometimes
But not great most times
At least it wasn't for me.
I missed you here
I missed sitting next to you
I missed touching you
I missed us.
I don't understand why
It was so horrible
For you living in my home.
You did tell me several times
You really did not
Want me touching you.
So I sort of said
Ok, well then ok.
Fuck it.
I got really good
At masturbating.
...
Not something I envisioned
You living there, me here
Is great sometimes
But not great most times
At least it wasn't for me.
I missed you here
I missed sitting next to you
I missed touching you
I missed us.
I don't understand why
It was so horrible
For you living in my home.
You did tell me several times
You really did not
Want me touching you.
So I sort of said
Ok, well then ok.
Fuck it.
I got really good
At masturbating.
...
#love
#regret
#relationships #breakup
#relationships #breakup
313 reads
10 Comments
Wishing and Hoping
"Wishing and hoping
Is like screaming
In your head to
No one and nothing."
Is like screaming
In your head to
No one and nothing."
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness
#heartbroken
#disappointment
318 reads
11 Comments
Unquenchable Thirst
Feeling sad
Your touch, your desire
Is active twice, maybe thrice a month
Is not enough.
An unquenchable thirst
Starving for touch
Want to feel your warmth.
You start and stop short.
Am left with me
Taking care of myself.
Our breakthrough, a while back
So encouraging
Deep and beautiful,
It too has subsided.
Another short-lived growth spurt
Turned sour.
Where does
That leave us?
In separate worlds...
Here I am again
Masturbation for self-relief
Cannot replace
My desperate need
To...
Your touch, your desire
Is active twice, maybe thrice a month
Is not enough.
An unquenchable thirst
Starving for touch
Want to feel your warmth.
You start and stop short.
Am left with me
Taking care of myself.
Our breakthrough, a while back
So encouraging
Deep and beautiful,
It too has subsided.
Another short-lived growth spurt
Turned sour.
Where does
That leave us?
In separate worlds...
Here I am again
Masturbation for self-relief
Cannot replace
My desperate need
To...
#sadness
#heartbroken
#sex
#disappointment
#emptiness
315 reads
13 Comments
Box
Sometimes I feel like
I'm in a box
I cannot maneuver
I cannot break free
Smothered in my own hypocrisy
Of who I am in reality
Wrestling from within
Trying to be something
I simply cannot be.
Golden years...
A euphemism for declining years
At times I feel used
Seems no purpose to carry on
Living a life of feeble mindedness
Is not for me.
Maybe the box is where
I should maintain
Am hidden away
No one can see the real me
The seething hate I clothe myself in
I haven't a chance to be...
I'm in a box
I cannot maneuver
I cannot break free
Smothered in my own hypocrisy
Of who I am in reality
Wrestling from within
Trying to be something
I simply cannot be.
Golden years...
A euphemism for declining years
At times I feel used
Seems no purpose to carry on
Living a life of feeble mindedness
Is not for me.
Maybe the box is where
I should maintain
Am hidden away
No one can see the real me
The seething hate I clothe myself in
I haven't a chance to be...
#sadness
#depression
#aging
#emptiness
#SelfWorth
245 reads
3 Comments
Drug Addiction Moved-In
There is darkness
I cannot see
I thought I would be ok
But I am not
Incredible sadness
I hate myself
I hate who I am
I hate who I am not
I hate myself
Just vacate the premises
Just want to be done
Tired of crying
Can barely get out of bed
Gaining weight
Depression in my DNA
Can barely take care of myself
Don't know what to do
Where to turn
I'm stuck
Not in control anymore
Drug addiction has moved
Into my home and has all but
Moved me out
I want my home back
I want my life...
I cannot see
I thought I would be ok
But I am not
Incredible sadness
I hate myself
I hate who I am
I hate who I am not
I hate myself
Just vacate the premises
Just want to be done
Tired of crying
Can barely get out of bed
Gaining weight
Depression in my DNA
Can barely take care of myself
Don't know what to do
Where to turn
I'm stuck
Not in control anymore
Drug addiction has moved
Into my home and has all but
Moved me out
I want my home back
I want my life...
#sadness
#drugs
#addiction
#MentalHealth
#vulnerability
764 reads
12 Comments
Dead to Me
Count me as dead to you
You have broken me
Not sure i will be able
To overcome this one.
I birthed you
I loved you
Now I hate you.
I'm just sick about this
Can't stop crying
You have broke me
Bridges are burning
You are on the other side
You will not be able
To get back home again.
You sicken me
Do not call me
Do not think of me
As your mother any more
I do not want to be
A mother to you
You will not ever be
Anything worth keeping
You are a useless
Human being
That fine...
You have broken me
Not sure i will be able
To overcome this one.
I birthed you
I loved you
Now I hate you.
I'm just sick about this
Can't stop crying
You have broke me
Bridges are burning
You are on the other side
You will not be able
To get back home again.
You sicken me
Do not call me
Do not think of me
As your mother any more
I do not want to be
A mother to you
You will not ever be
Anything worth keeping
You are a useless
Human being
That fine...
#anger
#heartbroken
#drugs
#despair
#disappointment
464 reads
2 Comments
Wrecking Ball Politics
I am so sad right now
I am so mad right now
I am so hurt right now
Why is it a minority
Of people in USA
Are governing our actions
Taking away our rights
At this moment
I fucking hate
The USA
I hate what is happening
In my beloved country
I'm embarrassed to say
I am an American
I used to love this country
I used to be proud of it
Now, I can't even fly
My country's flag
As I, an American
No longer own it
It belongs to those who would
Tear our country apart
Just to be in power ...
I am so mad right now
I am so hurt right now
Why is it a minority
Of people in USA
Are governing our actions
Taking away our rights
At this moment
I fucking hate
The USA
I hate what is happening
In my beloved country
I'm embarrassed to say
I am an American
I used to love this country
I used to be proud of it
Now, I can't even fly
My country's flag
As I, an American
No longer own it
It belongs to those who would
Tear our country apart
Just to be in power ...
#sadness
#politics
#freedom
420 reads
6 Comments
Unwanted Children
Unwanted Children
Collective statement
To abortion anilating prolifers
Climate crisis
Magnitude near ten
On Richter scale.
People, babies, children
Elderly and inbetwizters,
Mother Gaia, tired and taxed
Can no longer
Sustain increasing population
Starvation everywhere
Rampant homelessness
In the riotous streets.
We, the Unwanted Children
Birthed into existence
From the canals
Of ancient seedlings
Propose that,
Since...
You made decision to pass
Judgement, to condemn us ...
Collective statement
To abortion anilating prolifers
Climate crisis
Magnitude near ten
On Richter scale.
People, babies, children
Elderly and inbetwizters,
Mother Gaia, tired and taxed
Can no longer
Sustain increasing population
Starvation everywhere
Rampant homelessness
In the riotous streets.
We, the Unwanted Children
Birthed into existence
From the canals
Of ancient seedlings
Propose that,
Since...
You made decision to pass
Judgement, to condemn us ...
#children
#women
#politics
#LifeStruggles
#freedom
437 reads
5 Comments
A Soft Breeze
You are probably sound asleep
Or at least I hope so
Want to run and play
In your dreams with you
Make my presence known
So that when you wake
You will think of me
Deep in your core
Become breathless for no reason
Other than I just
Ran through your mind
A soft breeze
Making the hairs
On your skin visibly rise
Like static electricity
Just sparked on your body.
Or at least I hope so
Want to run and play
In your dreams with you
Make my presence known
So that when you wake
You will think of me
Deep in your core
Become breathless for no reason
Other than I just
Ran through your mind
A soft breeze
Making the hairs
On your skin visibly rise
Like static electricity
Just sparked on your body.
#love
#admiration
#emotions
676 reads
17 Comments
Everything and Nothingness
Is everything always lost into nothingness?"
#despair
#FeelingLost
#disappointment
522 reads
10 Comments
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