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All Gussied Up At The Table of The Normal

panic    
had plans today      
and as usual,      
she didn’t bother    
asking      
if I had any      
of my own      
     
the engines      
in my ears      
roar to life;      
hair-pin triggers      
yet unidentified      
send out      
the      
rescue squadron,      
everyone’s geared up,      
getting ready      
for flight      
     
heart thumping;      
speed metal      
bass beat      
triple-tap      
brrataatat!      
with the unexpected      
~flourish~      
smack in the middle      
that threatens      
to upend      
the whole rhythm      
     
trembling fingers      
argue      
with each other,      
scratching imaginary      
bug bites      
picking at cuticles      
until it feels      
like I’ve hit a funny bone      
~shock to my gut~      
and I put them      
in my mouth      
to soothe the sting      
     
dry tongue      
licks
chewed,      
cracked lips;      
shallow,      
too-cold air      
flows over      
my vibrating      
teeth      
and      
tries to find      
it’s way      
into      
lungs      
already full      
but      
not      
remembering      
how      
to let it all go      
once it’s trapped      
inside      
*      
*      
*      
*      
*      
*      
head under water,      
eyes darting      
I’m looking for proof;      
remember the exercise,      
ground in your senses,      
what can you      
see?      
feel?      
hear?
 
*  
*  
*  
*   
I fix my stare      
towards my      
little collection      
of plants;      
they really have      
grown into lovely      
specimens,      
despite my      
overbearing brand      
of love,      
where I either      
ghost them      
until they display      
decaying leaves      
in surrender,      
or I smother them      
to death;      
I don’t really have      
an in-between      
*  
*  
*     
I feel the icy flow      
from the cracked window      
stealing over my      
superheated cheeks,      
I stop to ponder the bliss      
of instantaneous relief;      
white-hot dread      
parking itself inside      
my skin,      
on high alert      
and ready to fight,        
rumbles quietly      
under its breath        
as the breeze      
caresses it back      
to sleep  
*  
*      
I smell my neighbor’s      
Tuesday fish supper;      
my nose wrinkles      
at the thought of      
fish with eyes      
fresh from the oven      
dried in the sockets      
staring at me      
over dinner      
while we      
politely discuss      
whatever it is      
normal people      
~people who can breathe at will~      
let flow from their      
minds;      
I giggle at the thought      
of me all gussied up      
at the table of      
The Normal,      
using all the right      
silverware      
but dropping      
all the wrong      
curses,      
burning ears      
all over the room      
*      
I feel the calm      
climbing over the peak      
to call my name      
I count breaths,      
feeling each one      
lengthen,      
ever so slightly      
into the next,        
until my heart      
beats slow and steady      
once more      
     
panic had plans      
today,      
but she      
didn’t know      
I’ve been      
practicing      
Written by LunaGreyhawk (Miss_Jenn_Leigh)
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