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All Gussied Up At The Table of The Normal
panic
had plans today
and as usual,
she didn’t bother
asking
if I had any
of my own
the engines
in my ears
roar to life;
hair-pin triggers
yet unidentified
send out
the
rescue squadron,
everyone’s geared up,
getting ready
for flight
heart thumping;
speed metal
bass beat
triple-tap
brrataatat!
with the unexpected
~flourish~
smack in the middle
that threatens
to upend
the whole rhythm
trembling fingers
argue
with each other,
scratching imaginary
bug bites
picking at cuticles
until it feels
like I’ve hit a funny bone
~shock to my gut~
and I put them
in my mouth
to soothe the sting
dry tongue
licks
chewed,
cracked lips;
shallow,
too-cold air
flows over
my vibrating
teeth
and
tries to find
it’s way
into
lungs
already full
but
not
remembering
how
to let it all go
once it’s trapped
inside
*
*
*
*
*
*
head under water,
eyes darting
I’m looking for proof;
remember the exercise,
ground in your senses,
what can you
see?
feel?
hear?
*
*
*
*
I fix my stare
towards my
little collection
of plants;
they really have
grown into lovely
specimens,
despite my
overbearing brand
of love,
where I either
ghost them
until they display
decaying leaves
in surrender,
or I smother them
to death;
I don’t really have
an in-between
*
*
*
I feel the icy flow
from the cracked window
stealing over my
superheated cheeks,
I stop to ponder the bliss
of instantaneous relief;
white-hot dread
parking itself inside
my skin,
on high alert
and ready to fight,
rumbles quietly
under its breath
as the breeze
caresses it back
to sleep
*
*
I smell my neighbor’s
Tuesday fish supper;
my nose wrinkles
at the thought of
fish with eyes
fresh from the oven
dried in the sockets
staring at me
over dinner
while we
politely discuss
whatever it is
normal people
~people who can breathe at will~
let flow from their
minds;
I giggle at the thought
of me all gussied up
at the table of
The Normal,
using all the right
silverware
but dropping
all the wrong
curses,
burning ears
all over the room
*
I feel the calm
climbing over the peak
to call my name
I count breaths,
feeling each one
lengthen,
ever so slightly
into the next,
until my heart
beats slow and steady
once more
panic had plans
today,
but she
didn’t know
I’ve been
practicing
had plans today
and as usual,
she didn’t bother
asking
if I had any
of my own
the engines
in my ears
roar to life;
hair-pin triggers
yet unidentified
send out
the
rescue squadron,
everyone’s geared up,
getting ready
for flight
heart thumping;
speed metal
bass beat
triple-tap
brrataatat!
with the unexpected
~flourish~
smack in the middle
that threatens
to upend
the whole rhythm
trembling fingers
argue
with each other,
scratching imaginary
bug bites
picking at cuticles
until it feels
like I’ve hit a funny bone
~shock to my gut~
and I put them
in my mouth
to soothe the sting
dry tongue
licks
chewed,
cracked lips;
shallow,
too-cold air
flows over
my vibrating
teeth
and
tries to find
it’s way
into
lungs
already full
but
not
remembering
how
to let it all go
once it’s trapped
inside
*
*
*
*
*
*
head under water,
eyes darting
I’m looking for proof;
remember the exercise,
ground in your senses,
what can you
see?
feel?
hear?
*
*
*
*
I fix my stare
towards my
little collection
of plants;
they really have
grown into lovely
specimens,
despite my
overbearing brand
of love,
where I either
ghost them
until they display
decaying leaves
in surrender,
or I smother them
to death;
I don’t really have
an in-between
*
*
*
I feel the icy flow
from the cracked window
stealing over my
superheated cheeks,
I stop to ponder the bliss
of instantaneous relief;
white-hot dread
parking itself inside
my skin,
on high alert
and ready to fight,
rumbles quietly
under its breath
as the breeze
caresses it back
to sleep
*
*
I smell my neighbor’s
Tuesday fish supper;
my nose wrinkles
at the thought of
fish with eyes
fresh from the oven
dried in the sockets
staring at me
over dinner
while we
politely discuss
whatever it is
normal people
~people who can breathe at will~
let flow from their
minds;
I giggle at the thought
of me all gussied up
at the table of
The Normal,
using all the right
silverware
but dropping
all the wrong
curses,
burning ears
all over the room
*
I feel the calm
climbing over the peak
to call my name
I count breaths,
feeling each one
lengthen,
ever so slightly
into the next,
until my heart
beats slow and steady
once more
panic had plans
today,
but she
didn’t know
I’ve been
practicing
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