living on a prayer

for that’s all I have
because I have a load gun
pointing at my head wishing
I could pull the trigger
Ending this life of hell
I am tormented between life
an death wondering if this
is a bad dream or a sick reality
that I have been hiding
in all my life I can feel it
in my blood that the end is near
for I'm just living on a prayer
that on my mind I really don’t
want to die but I can’t fight
these thought of suicide
it would be so easy to end this life
of hell and pain because
I will always have these
thoughts of suicide
with in my mind
the gun is load
pointing at my head
its my life to end
or my life to live
I have tried to make-believe
that my life was a easy road
but the more I pretended
the more suicidal I have become
I'm half way there holding
on to this prayer but it just
me here and I am terrified
I'm at the point of no return
with this gun I hold
I want to pull the trigger
I'm drowning in my tears
I am so confused wondering
if I could stay alive
with in this pain of mine
but the only way out
I can see is suicide
I'm sick of this live of hell
I don’t care so I might
as well commit suicide
an go to hell living on
a prayer