depravity in the garden

 
gentle is the night that stole my innocence  
it descended on me in terrifying fashion  
raping my purity  
stealing my faith  
 
a little girl with stars in her eyes  
in a night's time they were snuffed out  
my gentle god who wanted to prove  
how cruel he could be  
to amuse a woman, to get her into bed  
 
time passed...  
you revealed your true desires to me  
I covered my ears and screamed  
I didn't want to hear  
I didn't want to see  
 
you countenance is terrible  
you removed the markers  
let the sun fall on me  
with my magic, I reversed the curse  
I tell you what kind of father  
uses his own creation as a weapon?  
 
you fucked with all natural order  
now you ask me to see;  
Yosemite when I look in your eyes  
 
I scream I do...  
in the faces of the girls who died there  
when Cary Stayner raped and murdered  
my memories of our sacred place  
are now scarred and bleeding  
because in truth you got turned on then  
 
Stayner will die convicted  
of the crimes you inspired  
he will be judged in the heavens by your hands  
unless he begs for mercy  
 
I would ask why you made me thusly  
but I have myself  
to worry about in this dimension  
and the next one  
 
I'm securing my exit  
you would play with me  
then exile me with a broken heart  
I'm being groomed to sate you  
but in truth I can't stand what that means  
 
you made me love you in my youth  
I put all my trust in your truths  
then when I needed you  
you checked out...  
 
you claimed you lost your mind  
perhaps you did...I've not lost mine