Undeserving of Me

Mentally trying to deceive
Constantly women
Putting pressure on me
Having me believing
Breakups and heartbreaks
Was caused by me
But the other day
A light lit in my soul
Illuminating the darkness
I was trying to avoid
But getting slapped
And feeling bad
No longer my head is held low
Trying to put too much in
Into something that's not worth
Obviously my love
Is too much for them to hold
And like weak individuals
Never accepting
When it's them in fault
So they pass the blame
Catching me from behind
Shocked
Getting blindsided
Leaving me wondering....
What had I done
But now it's clear to me
Putting too much time
Trying to please
Somebody
That's not compatible to me