thoughts from the edge

  
it's early morning and I can't sleep
don't want to really
it's quiet here in the dark
 
there's drugs just outside my door
they will always be there
in case I get weak
I want to go out and chase them
but i'll be chasing them forever
 
some people would say move
but when the drugs call
no distance is too far
no obstacle too great
I will get what I'm looking for
it's starts and ends with me
I either want my life back or I don't
 
right now I'm still unsure what I want
my brain is playing tricks on me
it tell me what I want
it orders me in my sleep to go get it
I see it in my nightmares
I'm there doing it
my mind screams
get up bitch you're sleeping
go get it!!!
 
just across the yard  
people are tweaking
they feel unstoppable
 
my body feels lethargic and heavy
I'm afraid if I lie down I will sleep forever
and the demon drugs dogs will come after me
but I won't sleep forever
 
it will come to the point I can't sleep anymore
then I'll either hunt it
or push on through the void
 
it's so hard when there is a desert in front of you
and an oasis behind you
knowing your only way out of addiction
is through the badlands
so you either keep marching on
or take today's easy out  
 
easy in its instant relief
but remember once you snort that line
the time is ticking  
until the cunt must be paid again
 
never knowing when it will be my last bad choice
until it's too late