I'm sorry

I broke his heart
Ripped it to shreds
After I spent
All night
Holding him
In my bed
Am I fucking
Broken
Why don't I care
As he looked in my eyes
Brushed his fingers
Through my hair

He said all the things
I wanted him too
Did nothing wrong
Oh God I'm so
Cruel
I must be so
Dead
inside
I have no connection
Between my heart
And my mind

How sadistic am I
That I just don't care
No matter how much I try
Once I've cum
I don't want them there
I want all the hugs
The kisses too
But when the moment
Is over
I feel nothing for you
And I know it's wrong
Because I've been
Longing for
The right person
For me
To walk through my door

I'm so fucking sorry
I just didn't know
That what I really wanted
Was for me
To grow
Its taken a few men
To show me the way
I'm just
sorry
With your
heart
It was you
who
Had to pay