Pieces of a Day

Hi. Wanted to say thanks to everyone who has left comments. I'm sorry I haven't responded. Trying to go back to school and take care of pestering bills. But thank you so much, you don't know what your comments mean to me.

(1/16/2012)

Fall arrives softly, creeping, circling,
Licking around the edges of the house.
The sky a shivering pink while clouds
Coagulate into thin streams of blood.

I want to die but I don't kill myself, it's like
When you're about to put out that last
Cigarette but you wait. Not yet. Not yet.
I once was in love with a guy

Who swore death sounds like the moment
A butt hits water,
That beautiful transparent
Hiss.

You try to wring something out of the day,
Some final fit, use words like naked
And nubile, fumble to give classification
To this hunger inside you. Silence drapes

The windows while emptiness snarls and
Tears beneath your skin. Desire has you
Bent and moaning aloud, whispering promises and pleas to the wind.

I ache to give the right language to the
Feeling hissing inside me. My will like
Hands gently guiding a lover.
Not like that. Like this.